才回来了几天，已经开始想念在美国的朋友了。好笑吧？
可能，这里的朋友都走完了吧！而且，他们都有自己的生活了，我们之间，也有了距离。我想，有些朋友，只有你或她在需要彼此的时候，才会出现吧！这样，算是朋友吗？我也不知道。只知道，有点失望。
每个人看见的是我有机会出国读书的光彩，却没有人看得见我失去的是什么。也没有人愿意去了解。说了，人们只会说，你那么好命了，还抱怨什么呢？如果告诉他们，美国有什么好，他们都会羡慕，有些甚至会妒嫉，那何苦呢？有些时候，说了，只是纯粹想和他们分享，但，却会让人觉得是炫耀，那又何必说呢？
该回来吗？该永远呆在这儿吗？会快乐吗？
我也不懂我在写些什么。
Thursday, December 15
Thursday, December 8
Quite upset now. Too much things going on. I don't know how to fit that experiment into my abstract!! How can you combine two experiments into one abstract?! Especially they are consist of two different objectives? URGH!! I have been wasting my time on this stupid shit for the whole week. What am I doing in graduate school? FRUSTRATED!! No more Ph.D!
Wednesday, December 7
Once in a lifetime experience
What happened last Friday night?
Well, admit it, I was drunk. I have been stressing out these few weeks over the silent auction. Finally, we got it over with last Friday night. It was great. At least, it didn't turn out to be a huge disaster. With all the help from my friends and other committee members, we successfully raised $880!! Yohoooo!!! Even though it was less than what I expected, but, hey, it was a silent auction, not a live one, so, it is still good enough.
We went to Club-e after the auction and started dancing and drinking. They have this deal where you can get a pitcher of most drinks for $4, so, I bought 2 pitcher of Long Island ice tea with less ice and more alcohol requested. Most of my friends were not drinking because some of them were sick and some of them were driving, so, Nat and I pretty much finished two pitcher by ourselves. Fun, right? Yeah, it was fun drinking but the after effect was not fun. I was so happy and I didn't watch how much I drank, and by the time I realized it, it was too late. I was pretty much high and started talking a lot. I danced with a 21 years old, took the cigar out of my friend's hand and started smoking it, and stared at the guy who approached me and asked me to dance. Yeah, fun! It was hilarious though. Jose kept laughing at me the whole time. Yeah, he had a great time watching me drunk.
Afterall, I pretty much know what I was doing the whole time. I was more dare to do things that I usually won't, but I had fun. I didn't do anything that I regretted so far except dancing with that 21 years old guy. Yet, I wont let this happen again, cause you never know what is going to happen the next time.
Well, admit it, I was drunk. I have been stressing out these few weeks over the silent auction. Finally, we got it over with last Friday night. It was great. At least, it didn't turn out to be a huge disaster. With all the help from my friends and other committee members, we successfully raised $880!! Yohoooo!!! Even though it was less than what I expected, but, hey, it was a silent auction, not a live one, so, it is still good enough.
We went to Club-e after the auction and started dancing and drinking. They have this deal where you can get a pitcher of most drinks for $4, so, I bought 2 pitcher of Long Island ice tea with less ice and more alcohol requested. Most of my friends were not drinking because some of them were sick and some of them were driving, so, Nat and I pretty much finished two pitcher by ourselves. Fun, right? Yeah, it was fun drinking but the after effect was not fun. I was so happy and I didn't watch how much I drank, and by the time I realized it, it was too late. I was pretty much high and started talking a lot. I danced with a 21 years old, took the cigar out of my friend's hand and started smoking it, and stared at the guy who approached me and asked me to dance. Yeah, fun! It was hilarious though. Jose kept laughing at me the whole time. Yeah, he had a great time watching me drunk.
Afterall, I pretty much know what I was doing the whole time. I was more dare to do things that I usually won't, but I had fun. I didn't do anything that I regretted so far except dancing with that 21 years old guy. Yet, I wont let this happen again, cause you never know what is going to happen the next time.
Dropped By
Only after the incident happens, you only realize how you truly feel. My heart was ignored, till now.
Busy busy busy.
Busy busy busy.
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