我累了．．

你非常奇怪, 當你和我在一起的時候, 你很容易就疲倦. 但當你很累的時候, 還會和朋友去酒吧, 還可以玩得很夜. 是因為和我在一起很無聊嗎? 還是酒吧里的女人比較漂亮，令你忘了所有的疲累？或是酒吧里有性感的女人，讓你精神百倍？無論如何，這幾天我都為了我們的感情感到非常地疲倦．　你總是對 我不斷的要求，卻從不記得我為你所付出的一切．　你要我像家庭主婦一樣，在家準備晚餐給你，幫你做家務，讓你回來好好地休息．　可是，我不是你的妻子啊！ 　你總是說忙，連煮飯的時間也沒有，我從沒有怪你．　你說你想吃飯，我弄給你．　但當我不想洗碗的時候，多埋怨兩句，你就說我懶惰，甚麼都不愛做．　你從 沒想過你為我做過了些甚麼，卻總是埋怨我為你做得不夠．　這不平衡的感情，令我覺得好累．我想，如果我們繼續這樣下去，我有一天一定會喊：停，我累了．開 始很想一個人過，不想老是為了讓你回來有飯吃而忙，讓你明天有衣穿而不停的幫你洗衣，燙衣．為了讓你過得開心，我付出也犧牲了不少．可是，你懂得珍惜嗎？ 和你在一起，你老是告訴我，我不夠成熟，我不夠好．但你何常又是呢？你說，有甚麼問題，要坦白的說出來．　可是，每次告訴你我的不滿，你都會駁回，好想都 是我的錯一般．很累，很累，很累．．

Congratulations!

I just attend a wedding last Saturday. The bride is my good friend, Anita. I am really happy to see her got married. Congratulations, my friend. All my best wishes will be with you.

22...

Feeling Lost.. I am turning 22 now. :( Feeling kind of lost now. I am always trying to escape from responsibility. I am a slumber person. I don't like to take any responsibility and whenever I have one, I will always trying to escape from it. Too lazy to fulfill all the task I need to complete. Now, I am 22. No longer a kid. Honestly, studying graduate school was a way that I used to runaway from my responsibility. I don't want to work in the industry. I know there are a lot of politics if I work in the industry. I don't know what to do at that time. I couldn't sit at home and do nothing. Therefore, I choose to study graduate school. I thought I could actually live the slumber life as before. However, turning 22 makes me realize that I should do something with my life. But, what? I just finish reading Harry Potter 5 today. I grieve about Sirius dead very badly. I tried to imagine that if I am Harry Potter, I don't see a point of living my life anymore. I don't have any relatives nor anyone that makes me feel like wanted to continue my life. It started to make me think, what is the purpose of living? Are we going to suffer all the pain of loss, all the pain of failure? Or are we going to be happy for all our success and all the achievements? What's after that then? We are going to continue our life, isn't it? Living over the same thing, same routine everyday. Kinda bored. Now I feel and realize what my boyfriend always said. Life is a struggle. Life is a torture. However, I wont end my life. I understand the pain of lost and I don't want anyone who love me to go through that pain. Continue with my life..struggling..the first day of my 22..

想家..

每一年的夏天， 我都会回家一个月。今年，一如往常，我也很想回家。
不知怎么向教授开口说我想回家一个月，太长了吧，这个假期对她来说。
好想家，好想家。。 月是故乡圆。。

月亮圆，月亮圆 月亮照在我的家
没有春夏秋冬的家 流传千年

是的，我的家，我的故乡，是一个没有春夏秋冬的地方。常年四季，天气都一样地潮湿闷热，偶而会下雨，为原本潮湿闷热的空气带来丝丝的清凉。人们都喜欢凌晨时分的雨，它使人们更容易入睡。

（太久没写中文了，都不知该怎么用中文表达，很遗憾！就此搁笔吧！）

很有意思的詩..宋岳庭的作品

我的左脚踩著虚，右脚踩著实
漫无目的的在它们之间穿梭
我喜欢虚因为它是安慰的
我不得不接受实因为它是存在的

我的虚是实，因为它也是存在的
它存在我的思想，它是我的生活

我爱虚，虚也爱我
我们生的孩子叫做忏悔
它是我的正面，也是我的反面
希望我的火柴烧完时
我的面容也是安详的
走的时候，记得把行李放下，什么都不要带著
闭起眼睛，跟著我的虚和忏悔一起消失

我的名字叫做逃避现实的旅人…