夜深了，人也靜了，我還沒睡。

忙忙碌碌了好幾晚，還是，一樣？比較好了。

見證和分享了馬寶的奇妙恩典，開朗多了。嘿。。會更好的，明天會更好的。

發現了屬下在我背後做手腳，我卻沒說什麼，扮傻。有時，真的不想理。你愛怎樣就怎樣吧，反正，我無所謂。^-^ 沒怕過。。天下這麼大，必然有我容身之處。。何況，我光明正大，沒啥好怕，反而你每天像老鼠一樣戰戰競競，不是更可悲嗎？我不停地警告自己，不可以變得像你。

人哪，為何要那麼驕傲啊？要明白呀，天上有天，人上有人。。追求名利錢財是永無盡頭的。。

感謝主，身邊好多很好的朋友O~ 很開心。謝謝你們。。

好啦，我九月的勞動節洗禮喔。。別說我沒告訴你們。

笑一個。

約翰一書 4:18

最近这几天，一直看见这段经文，約翰一書 4:18 ：

爱 里 没 有 惧 怕 ； 爱 既 完 全 ， 就 把 惧 怕 除 去 。 因 为 惧 怕 里 含 着 刑 罚 ， 惧 怕 的 人 在 爱 里 未 得 完 全 。

说得容易，真正去实施，好像，有点难。多少人能做到爱人如己呢？人都是自私的。

懶懶的

懶懶的周末，懶懶的我。好悠閒，好滿足。


薰衣草，沒怎麼看到，卻享受了熱熱的陽光，暖暖的風，冷冷的啤酒，和天南地北亂聊的朋友。好幸福。


幸福的味道，就快成為薰衣草的香味了。。

是的，我是有點遲鈍，或，我其實不是很想去面對，懶懶的。不過，無所謂啦。你不說，我也就當做不知道好了。反正，你也不急，我也不想理，大家就繼續這樣子好了。誰也沒對不起誰，誰也沒在傷害著誰。還是覺得你摸我的頭的時候，好好笑。謝謝你對我的好。

昨晚，我不想公告的事，還是讓你知道了。我想，你一直都在旁敲側襲地在尋找答案了，只是我不說而已。昨晚他們在笑我和他時，被你知道了。還好吧。。我知道自己想要的是什麼。給我半年時間，來完成我想做的事，其他的，都別來煩我好了。我現在很開心，就讓我這樣子過多半年好了。

還有好多好多事要完成，讓自己飄飄浮浮自由自在地過著，辦起事來也比較得心應手。
男女相吸這個道理，千古不變，還是這樣子的好。^-^

有個新加坡來的牙醫新朋友，小弟弟，讓我帶你看世界吧！（也許他還比我老。。嘿嘿。。）

End of VBS

"Amen....Praise the Lord"....Yeah, the crew leaders and the station leaders were asked to sing and dance to this song on the stage. We have to compete with the kids to see who can sing louder. It was fun! I had a great time. BASIC friends came to me after the event ended and told me I definitely need to go to Mission Trip with them because I know all the hand gestures to most of the song... >_<

I learned that when you have physical interactive games for the kids, instead of creating a more lively atmosphere, you are better off creating a gentle and soothing atmosphere. Otherwise, you are looking for chaos! Thank God that I got to do both today. That would help me to do a better job during Mission Tip.

Crying kids.
I was asking the children to answer some question and she got scared and started crying. Hmm...Hmm...Learned that I have to move on instead of paying attention to the kids when they cry. It will not make the situation better by me trying to comfort her.

Foul language
He was trying to gain attention by playing the sympathy card. I was left shocked and don't know what to do. Hey, they are not my kids, okay? I can't really punish them or anything because they are not my kids! In fact, I am friends of his parents and that actually kinda make the matter worse.
Thanks to Sophia, now I "kinda" know how to deal with them.

After working with the kids for the past few days, it makes me wonder though, if I really wanted children. What if I don't know how to raise them? What if they turned into one of those problematic kid? It was a lot of fun leading the children and play with them but...raising them? That is very challenging!
Oh well, I guess when the time comes, we will figure out. =)

Thanks to Aunt Mary's insisting/non-negotiable attitude and thanks to Sophia, I learned a lot out of this VBS. It has been an eye-opening experience.

VBS Day 4

On my way back home, I saw a piece of paper flapping underneath my windshield wiper. Oh! I got my car "serviced" by the Youth group..Haha...Unfortunately, while driving on the freeway, the strong wind blew away my note. Well, I will find out what they wrote later today when I go back and grab one of the youth leader.

Found out that I have a hard time praying with the children. You have to pray a short prayer because their attention spend is not very long, and it has to be simple for them to understand...Hmm...

I was discussing with Sophia about how to lead the children and she told me to reflect back to what I enjoyed when I was young. I told her, "I was rebellious and I enjoyed bullying my teacher." She was...speechless....haha...

God, did you hear me? Wrong person for the job, okay? =P

Haha...last day of VBS today..at least for now. =)

VBS Day 3

It was a challenging one! I need to act like a 花痴 this time. I have to praise Superman and acted like he is real and he is all that I need. It was...hilarious! The kids were looking at me like I am crazy! Haha...They told me I was dreaming and that Superman was not real. I even have to act like I was so crushed to learn that Superman wasn't real! It was funny!!

Sophia led the first 2 groups and I did the last one. Josh was there watching Sophia and he came up to me after Sophia was done with a laugh on his face, and asked, "Are you doing that for the Mission Trip?" I looked at him and said, "I am going to request for you as my assistant" Haha..we will see how that goes...

It was fun working with the children. Every time different crew comes in, I watched how each crew leader lead the children. Those crew leaders age ranged from 16 - 70. Some of them are ABC and some of them are ESL. It touches me to see how hard they are trying especially when you see how those fatherly aged man being gentle, soft and patient to the little kids and how those young people laugh and smile although the kids were being non-responsive. I am impressed, honestly.

At the end of each day, all the kids come back to the sanctuary and do the sing & dance to the closing song. You can see how happy they are! It is very contagious indeed. You started smiling in your heart. It brings so much joy to you as you are singing and dancing along with them. I started to realize why people love to work with children despite the challenges you face dealing with kids.

Sophia was telling Josh that they are molding me....Hmm....Children ministry??

VBS Day 2

VBS 的第二天，哈哈。。比較好那麼一點點而已。不小心在和小孩說話時，為自己挖了個洞，結果只好硬著頭皮跳進去咯！題目要他們寫或畫出他們害怕的東西，我嘛，就在舉例時提到我以前會怕媽媽，結果每個小傢伙反應都特別快（問別的問題又不見他們這麼熱心哪！），問我為甚麼。。我只好老實答因為我不聽話後快快轉話題。之後想想，我是不是誤人子弟呀？？

還好，後來和 Lori 聊時，她在大笑（過份！）之後說，妳老實回答他們，所以還好啦。。=__=" 看來明天還是照著劇本讀好了。

今天的電影超短，之後簡直是亂掰一通來拖時間。。很搞笑。希望 Mission Trip 時可以想到怎麼處置啦。。

之後帶動唱時，我在那兒大玩，結果 Lilian 就笑我說，看妳一副大人樣，玩起來比小孩還瘋。。是褒還是貶呢？嘿。。不管了！我，回來了！！！Yohoooo!!!!!!!!!!

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蜂鳥是唯一可以倒過來飛的鳥。為何要往後飛呢？往前不好嗎？沒有東西是錯過的吧？是要與不要之分而已。別傻了！往前走就好了。一直往後看，小心扭到脖子哩！^-^

VBS Day 1

Started! It all started! The official start of VBS 2009, the official start of my...children ministry??!! Ehhhh.....

Thought that I was going to just watch and learn (and sit back & relax, of course ^-^), and do my first solo on Thursday, but that's not what He had planned for me. He let me flew solo today (I guessed He sensed my lazy bone deteriorating). I was so nervous that my back was all wet after I was done with the first group of children. I believe my face was probably red as well. Haha..I was much better when the second group comes around. *big sigh of relieve*

Thanks to Sophia, I have my first taste of Dockside Drive In today. She was supposed to do it till Wednesday and I will do Thursday after I observed her for 3 days but she suggested that she will take the first 2 groups and I will take the last 2. I agreed to it although I was scared. Well, you have to emm...step out of your comfort zone once in a while?? It is all good.

Thanks to my Toastmaster training, I was able to impromptu a little bit. I read from the handout a lot because I was so afraid that I might mislead all these innocent children. I was worried too because I can't talk softly like her (I am not a Mum yet! So, these traits do not exist in me! Or maybe it will never exist! Haha..only God knows). Thanks to Purpose Driven Life, I know we are all different and it is okay for me to do it My way.

Thanks to the rest of the crew who gave me confident after I finished my 1st group. Thanks to Sophia's guidance while I lead. Thanks to the dimmed light in the sanctuary, no one realized that my face was red! Haha...

God, please continue to guide and lead me so that I have the confident to lead it during the Mission Trip.

Someone impressed me today. That does not happen very often. Keep it up, dude! =)

Exhausted~~~~ Sleep~~~~ Nighty night...

Up

終於看了一直想看的卡通。超愛卡通。。嘿嘿。。趁我生日，就招了一大堆人去看。我們一群人，佔了整行坐位，好好玩。

Up 很不錯，把人生都寫得很真。從小時候的天真，到長大了的愛，結婚後的平凡，滿足，失望，接受，看開，樂觀和恩愛的生活，到最後的失去，無措，害怕，孤獨，不舍，和最終的新的方向和滿足，都刻畫得很明確。故事里也描寫了人性的黑暗，貪婪，追求名譽的一面，也表達了人的善良，忠心，愛，和無條件的接受。

卡通里的對白不多，有些部份是利用相片的方式來表達，卻很成功地讓觀眾了解到其中的意義。情節和其他電影比較，有些部份對有些人來說，可能有點慢，偶而會有主角沉默地思考的時候，卻令我很有共鳴。印像最深刻的對白，是那小孩說的，“It is the boring things that I remembered / missed the most”。我想，男主角當時必然想起了和妻子平凡的生活吧。

有時候，生活太忙了，太多活動了，會令我們忘了或忽略了自己最想要的是什麼。這部卡通，值得再看。該會買來收藏吧。

生日快樂。謝謝你們。

突然很想念愛城 MU 的 Scones。自己怎麼弄都不像。

突然很想出去走走。周末太忙了，結果這幾天都窩在家里。

好吧，就去 B&N，順道在那的星巴克買個 Scones 和咖啡。嗯，就這樣。

五月天 - 突然好想你

詞、曲：阿信｜唱：五月天

最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息 最怕突然聽到你的消息

想念如果會有聲音 不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自己屬於我自己 只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你帶我走過最難忘的旅行 然後留下最痛的紀念品

我們 那麼甜那麼美那麼相信 那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息 最怕突然聽到你的消息

最怕此生已經決心自己過沒有你卻又突然聽到你的消息

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最愛的五月天。公司把所有網上電台都 block 掉了。。本人只好在 youtube 里制造自己的 playlist，還蠻好玩的。。嘻嘻。。千万不要連 youtube 也不讓我上啊。。

五月天，超棒的！從中學他們第一張專輯到現在，都沒怎麼令我失望過。每首歌，曲和詞都很不錯。最近聽見了這首，很喜歡。《天使》也不錯。

姓吳的無業遊民，快點去 download 給我！

贊贊贊！

選擇，要靠著信心走下去O~~
天天都在面對選擇和決定。。啊！快瘋掉了！昨天讀 Purpose Driven Life（第２２天）時，說到決定和行動。我們經常會在害怕和軟弱時問，“神啊，我們該怎麼走呢？”其實，我們該抱持著信心，做對的決定，不該坐著等事情發生。上帝總是在等我們帶著對他的信心，踏出那第一步後，才能幫助我們。

過了一個好忙的周末，卻很充實。Tina終於走了。今天崇拜後，大家擁抱道別時，都難過地。。掉淚了。是的，我是水做的啦！ 雖然相處的時光很短暫，感情卻很深。。


感謝姐妹們給我這個机會，要求我為她做個蛋糕，也讓我了解到，我，真的可以。 雖然沒有很美，但對我來說，已經很不錯了哪！沒有任何訓練，單憑，呃。。亂來一通。。嘿嘿。。
三層的海棉蛋糕，草莓奶油夾心，奶油Icing。。我的最愛！從星期五晚，弄蛋糕，到星期六設計蛋糕，下午三點半，才弄完。很累，卻很開心，滿足。接下來呢。。就要投資了。。買多幾個模型，買個提蛋糕的盒，再。。去上課啦！！這個月又不能開課，四堂中的兩堂，我都不能去。。嗚。。可惡。。上個月不行，這個月也不行，是怎樣啦！算了。。都是為上帝做事。。還好，還好。

睡覺啦。。累死了。。整個周末都沒怎麼睡。。忙到晚上九點才回到家。。垮了。。晚安。。

^-^

處理了一些事情，心，輕鬆了好多。感謝主，感謝妳。
叭叭哩叭叭。。往前走。。