Idiot attacked..AGAIN!!

Still remember that so called "friend" of mine who blamed me for whatever misfortune that happend to her? (Refer to post on March 31, 2005). Here comes her attack again! Struck me, again!

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Yesterday, our professor decided to let us vote whether we want an in class exam or a take home exam. We have 7 people in the class and everyone had made up their mind. 3 of them decided to go for in class and the other 3 decided to go for take home. So, I became the key person who is gonna break the tie and push the ballot to one way or the other since I was too slow to make up my mind (yeah, sounds like John Kerry? Flip Flopping).

Finally, I voted for take home since I don't really want to memorized anything anymore. Then, after the class...here she came:

Idiot (fiercely) : "You! You are the one who caused everything!"

Me (puzzled) : "What? What are you talking about?"

Idiot: "We all already made the decision and you are the only one who make us take the take home exam!"

Me (disbelieved and disgusted) : "You can't blame me for that! I have my right to choose whatever I want!"

CL: "Yeah, you cannot blame her for that."

T: "It is not her fault, she just decided last."

Idiot: "I am not blaming you, you are the one who choose it and make us do the take home! If not because of you, we will have an in class exam!"

Me: "What the fxxk!" (said it in my heart)

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Ok, first of all, if that is not blame, what was that? Praise? Appreciation?? What the hell is your problem?? I almost wanted to "explain" to her and ask her to stop blaming her problem on others but I didn't do that. I just kept quiet before I burst out something that I will regret. I also didn't want to make T, CL and others feel awkward if I started arguing with her. So, I kept quiet. For the n time she accused me, I kept quiet. What a ridiculous unreasonable @#^&%()*!

This is not it, she had more than that!

Today, we were walking back from class and CL gave me the coffee candy that I asked her to keep yesterday. Then, CL wanted to put it back to her bag because she took more than 1 out. Before she placed it back, she offered it to her. Here's what she said,

"You didn't offer me first so I don't want it anymore."

DUH!!

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Then that day when we all were working in the computer lab for our report, I went out to took pictures of our samples. After that, I decided to just bring the samples and give it to others who were working on the paper in the computer lab. I have 2 bottles of those unopened samples and 1 that was opened. So, I walked into the computer lab and gave it to N and CL since I saw them first. Idiot was sitting way back behind and I didn't give it to her since I saw her last and the only sample I had was opened. Then, she stood up behind the computer and said to me,

"Oh! Now you give it to everyone except me. Everyone has one and I don't have. What does that mean?"

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Hei..dude! Act like a grown up, will ya? I know your husband treated you like a little baby but you should know that we are your friend, not your husband! I had have enough of you. That's it! The next time you accused me for anything happened to you, don't think that I will let it go that easy. You had used up all my patients. You'd better stop doing that before I ask you to ....(what you always scold people)!

An "Eventful" Day..

First, that lovely 村姑 joined us for lunch, without our invitations after the class. That's just great. I really don't like her that much. She always thought that we all like to hang out with her but indeed, we DON'T!!

I was in a pretty bad mood cause my exam result didn't turn out that well but, nevermind. Then, I went to the dentist.

Good things just kept happening.

I parked my car and I was nervous because I didn't really know where the dental clinic is and I have only 5 minutes to figure that out. So, I quickly open up the coin drawer in my car to get some coin to pay for the parking meter, then I get my purse and locked the car. I decided to leave the whole bunch of keys in the car because I wont be needing it. I walked around and a kind man helped me and direct me to the right place.

Ok, get my cavity fixed. I went up to the registration lady and wanted to pay, hmm..how much? 170 bucks!! For a freaking little hole!! Damn!!

Ok, nevermind, again. I walked out from the clinic, decided to drive back to school to meet up with my group mates to work on the paper. Then...WHERE THE HELL IS MY KEY??!! Great!! It is in my car! Where is my spare key?? It is in my apartment! Where is my apartment key?? It is in my CAR!! I look at myself in the mirror, and I saw a "DUMBASS" across my forehead.

Luckily, Mr K helped me. He drove me to my property management to get a key, then drove me back home to pick up my spare key, then drove me back to my car. Hiu....lucky me.

I decided to go to the property management to return the key and also pay my rent. So, I went there and wanted to write a check. Due to some mental retardation issues or some very self loving problem I had, I wrote the check to myself! Ok, that got corrected. Then, I wrote August. Ok, that got corrected. Then, I wrote 2004!! What the hell is wrong with me today?

God...I guess the needle that dentist poke on my gum do more than what it supposed to. They "fried" my brain (that's what that lovely 村姑 always said when she doesn't want to work on the paper).

What a long day...

My mental retardation still hasn't gone yet, so, anyone, please don't come near me. I bite!

Money

I have been thinking a lot about money lately. It just came to my mind that money is indeed very important in order to have a good life.

Last Friday, the filling on one of my cavities fell off. I never went to any dentist here in the United State cause it is so expensive! It cost around 50bucks or more just for a consultation (means that you see that dentist face and he/she talks to you, and that's all you got!) and another 70bucks or so just to get the cavity fixed. Anyway, I have to go this time since the food stuck in the cavity and I couldn't get it out. Right now I am chewing on only one side of my mouth.

So, I was thinking last night about how much fortune the whole dental thing will cost me and it came to my mind that I can't stand the pain when the dentist is trying to fix my cavity. Normally, I asked the dentist to put some anesthetic on my gum before he/she starts to do anything. Ok, here comes the question, how much would a anesthetic cause? Another 30 bucks? Or more?

Now, I have to decide if I want to go for the anesthetic or just, bite my teeth and get it over with. 30 bucks!! Pain Versus Money...

I start to understand why all this time my dad kept pushing me to graduate and go out and get a real job (by real job, he means earning big money). My job wasn't bad now but it doesn't make big money. I think he knew me too well. He know that with this salary, I can survive, but I wont be able to live a better life. Take this dental problem as an example, I think I probably would go with taking the pain and save that 30 bucks, which, normally is the last thing I would do. I am not a pain taker. My pain threshold is very very low.

Honestly, this is the first time in my life that I really understand how much money really mean. I have always take it for granted. My parents always gave me what I want. I never really understand those people who can't even afford a pair of white shoes to go to school or a new school uniform. Now, I started to get a taste of what they were going through.

God...Money Money Money!!

Good Life = Big Salary ; Low Salary = Painssssss

還是很煩

聆聽著五月天的《溫柔》與《純真》，是我已失去或，不曾擁有的優點？你覺得呢？
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最近，很煩。很多事情，想不通、看不開、理不清。
大考就要到了，不怎麼想讀書，好想隨隨便便把它考了就算了。但，我總是過不了良心那一關。已經太久沒有試過毫無準備地走入考場了，希望這次不會重蹈覆轍。最後一次了，加油吧！
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為甚麼有些人會變得那麼令人討厭？以下，是在下這幾天無聊地思考後得來的結論：

1. 人類很複雜，總愛把簡單的事情複雜化。
2. 人類把事情複雜化了之後，就會開始埋怨，覺得全世界欠了他們。然後，就開始心生冤恨，變得鬱鬱寡歡，每天自憐自唉，天天愁眉苦臉地對著別人。
3. 久而久之，朋友們都開始怕了他們，也不想每天聆聽他們的抱怨，不想被他們的消極感染，漸漸地也疏遠了他們。
4. 在失去了朋友之後，他們變得更加消極，更加地憤世嫉俗，更加地令人不想也不敢接近。
5. 在他們那一張生人勿近的臉孔下，他們漸漸地感到孤獨、寂寞和無助。
6. 當他們看見了別人開心的笑顏，心中的不平衡也日漸加深，孤獨、寂寞、憤恨、妒嫉和無助也開始漸漸地侵蝕了他們的理智和良心。
7. 在失去了良心和理智之後，還有甚麼事是他們狠不下心來做的呢？
8. 結果，他們就成為了最令人討厭的生物了。

朋友們，希望你們在踏入第二階段之前還來得及抽身吧！世上已有太多討厭的生物了，我不想我的朋友們加入他們的行列。

好吧！無聊完了。又是一個毫無進展與收穫的夜晚。晚安，個位！

亂

夜了，累了，靜了，寂了。
想著，念著，望著，呆著，煩著。
很鬱悶，很納悶，很凌亂，很煩躁，很無助。
好複雜，好無奈，好繁亂，好混亂，好迷亂。
迷路了，迷糊了，迷茫了，迷惑了，心迷了。
沉悶，沉寂，沉靜，沉默，沉思。
想躲，想逃，想走，想避，想離。
傻了，呆了，放了，破了，碎了，
了了。

Bad News..

Huh....just found out that I might not get my research done by the end of this year, which mean, I might have to stay for another Spring semester. Which, also mean that I might have to start saving money now cause my professor might not pay me for that semester. Which, again, also mean that I might not be able to go home during CNY next year. Which, again, also mean that I might not be able to go home for another year. God! So many consequences..

What can I do now? What can I do next? I am gonna talk to her tomorrow. I don't know what I could do right now. I can't do my first replication before I go to Costa Rica, or else, I might have to give up my finals. I am so lost now.

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What do I wish now?

I wish that she would allow me to take a break and start working on my research only after I got back from Costa Rica.

I wish that there are no significant differences observed between skim milk and whole milk, and that she would agree to drop one of them out from my research.

I wish that she will get me an undergradute helper so that he/she could help me to run the chemical part of my research, then I could do more replications in one trial.

I wish that all the equipments especially my lovely GC wont break down and my colleague wont fight for the equipment with me.

I wish that all the results would turn out good.

I wish that everything I wish would come true.

Welcome, Summer! I am so looking forward to see you. I am so so looking forward to get my research done. I am so so so looking forward to move on to another stage of my life, even though I don't really know what it is gonna be.

That's life, isn't it? Full of surprises!

Let's keep our finger crossed..

Finally..

Today, I am gonna admit to something that I always tried to ignore.

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I AM GETTING OLD.

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Why?

I have been hanging out with these kids lately and I just found out that I am getting old, of course, I mean mentally and psychologically.

I can never accept gals who acted cute or doing stupid stuff around me. But now, I can. In fact, I just think they are cute, and not annoying at all! I always thought that girls who tried to act cute around me are just, plainly fake and irritating. I just don't like them. I just found out that I am not only liking them, I started to treat them as little sisters. I don't know whether it is because they are really lovable or what, but I just found out that I really like them. I guess I am really started to accept the fact that I am no longer teenager and I need to act like an adult from now onward. It is weird, isn't it? I always hated those gals/guys who acted like kids but now, I just started to accept the fact that they are younger than me and that's why they are like this, and most importantly, I am getting older.

Well, I guess this is good for me. At least, I will start to tolerate those youngsters for doing stupid stunts and treat them as a friend and accepting the fact that I already passed that phase and they have years before they reach the current phase I am in now. Anyway, I still can't accept those gals or guys who were my age or older acting like 12 years old and saying no-brainer stuff. So, no-brainer gals and guys, please STAY OUT OF MY WAY! Especially GALS!! Don't think that I would treat you like my little sisters, don't even dream about it, it wont even happen in your next life!

Bye, my flash drive..

As usual, not much progress this weekend except the empty laundry basket.

An expected thing happened, I lost my flash drive. Yeah, I lost it, with all the files in it. I knew that I am gonna lost it someday cause I am always such a careless person. It was quite amaze that I didn't lost it within these 2 years. Well, fortunately, I attached some of the files to my groupmates before I lost it. So, still not that bad yet. I learned from my aunt that whenever I lost something, just treat it as "破財消災". That makes me feel better most of the time. Now only I realize how important that flash drive was to me. I am underfunction this weekend partly due to that flash drive. I don't have the initiation to work since I don't know how I am gonna save my stuff and bring it around. It is so inconvenient to keep attaching it to my mailboxes. Anyway, I am crossing my fingers now that hopefully I will see it in my office mailbox tomorrow. Pray, pray really hard this time. Hope kindness and honesty still exist in one's heart.

Thanks to KS though, he bought me a new one. How sweet he is.

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**Updated 11:31pm

I found my flash drive! Right on top of the CPU! Guess I should look up next time instead of look down. Luckily, KS hasn't order a new one yet.

Happy Birthday, my sis!

Dear Sis,

You are smart, intelligent, funny, kind, generous, lovely, sweet, caring, and all the good stuff you can ever thought of......but best of all....

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YOU ARE OLDER THAN ME!!! WAKAKAKAKAKA....

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Happy Birthday, My sis!

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P/S: Can't find my favorite Birthday song, from 山腳下男孩. Too bad.

Weekend Recap

Haven't been writing anything here lately. I was pretty busy with all the exams, papers and presentations. This week is not that bad. I have a paper due this Friday but, I haven't even started it yet. Yeah, kinda lazy and try to lay back a bit.

How was the exam? Well, as usual, it sucks. The worst thing was that I saw someone cheating in the class and I didn't report. Yeah, I didn't. I did it in the first exam and the professor didn't really do anything about that. Kinda disappointed. I didn't have the courage to report again this time cause I don't want to turn myself into a bitch to that professor. By the way, he is in my POS (Program of Study). So, better leave him some good impression to prevent myself from being the first and the only M.S. student who doesn't pass her defense. I saw that two 姦夫淫婦 today in the class. Really pissed. Feel like want to slap them. Bitch slap them. Can't really focus in the class, all that running through my mind was how to terrorize them so that they won't do it again in the final. Damn! It is damn unfair! KS suggest that if I can't report them, I should join them. Those damn Chinese! (Oops! Forget that myself is a Chinese too). What a shame! Shame on you, you China Chinese cheating suckers! (Those that I caught are Chinese, twice, different couples)

Anyway, to compensate for all the weight we lose over the weeks, CL and I went to King buffet that night for our dinner. We ate for an hour and half. Non-stop that kind. All the desserts, fruits, crabs, my lovely sugar coated bread, and more foods. At last, I was too full to get my favorite vanilla ice cream.

Mei is leaving tomorrow. So, we went shopping that Saturday with her just to hang out before she leave. It was fun, and, of course, more food. We shopped from around 11.30am to 5.00pm. Then we went to Cheesecake Factory for, hehe..dessert (yeah, dessert before dinner). Well, we promised Miki to have dinner with her, so, we can only have dessert so that we won't be fill up. Anyway, plan didn't go as what we thought it would be, we were kind of full when we left the mall. We are kind human being, so, we went as what we planned and go for dinner with Miki in The Cafe. Yeah, more food. Unfortunately, too full for dessert this time. My lovely Creme brulee...I am coming back for you after finals.

Sunday, CL called and wake me up at 11.50am. We went to that Explore Asia thingy for my lunch. Oh yeah, my intention was only for the food. To be honest, the food kind of sucks. In my opinion, only the Malaysian food is edible. The Indonesian food, something called Gaba-gaba or something like that, taste so weird! The Japanese food was way too salty for me and weren't that special at all. The performances weren't bad but the slide show from Japan was kinda weird. They show these two cars (or one?) from Honda? Or Toyota? but they didn't tell you what is so special about that car except that Not-That-Hot Japanese gal kept posing around the car. Is that a Hybrid car? Solar car? or what? But their Robots slide shows were nice, even though they should probably add more memory into that laptop or use a better laptop when showing those slides.

Anyway, I have a very eventful weekend, and, now I need to do my leftover homeworks.

Mei is leaving tomorrow. Don't know when I am gonna see her again. Farewell, my dear friend. I will miss the time when you are messing around in my house. Do take care and hope you find what you want in your life back in Hong Kong. Most importantly, remember to inform 3 or 6 months ahead if you are getting married. :)

老鼠愛大米 VS 蒼蠅愛大便

This post dedicated to you, my special someone. :)

When I heard this song, I can't help but thought about you. My sis asked me to listen to this song, so, I downloaded it and when I first heard it, I felt so funny.

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Let's look at the changed lyrics:

我听见你的声音 有种特别的感觉

让我不断想 不敢再忘记你

我记得有一个人 永远留在我心中

哪怕只能够这样的想你

如果真的有一天 爱情理想会实现

我会加倍努力好好对你 永远不改变

不管路有多么远 一定会让它实现

我会亲亲在你耳边对你说 对你说

我爱你爱着你 就像蒼蠅愛大便

不管有多少风雨 我都会依然陪着你

我想你想着你 不管有多么的苦

只要能让你开心 我什么都愿意

这样爱你

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I know you know what I am trying to say here.

So, one day if your man ask you how much do you love him, tell him this.

:)

童話

It is a very hectic day. Have been up since 8.30 this morning, yeah, 8.30am! Saturday, rite? Am I crazy? Yeah, I wish. So that I don't have to turn in that stupid paper, present two stupid presentations and take that stupid exam. Yeah, I wish I am crazy, but, only for one week. Hehe..I still want to perform like normal some other time. Have been working on that paper since this morning. Luckily we got all the statistic analysis finished up last night (I know it's Friday night, but, what can I do?) and still have more stuff to work on tomorrow. I wish I have one more day. Yeah, one more day. But I think I am gonna lose one hour tonight instead. Jeez... Somebody! Turn back the clock!!

Tshiela stopped by just now after went to the College Bowl thing. Oh yeah, by the way, we lost, again, to Minnesota State University. Hehehe..no surprise to me. After those two top graduate students were gone, we never win again.

Ok, go back to my topic. I went to Jacy's website today and saw someone left a message saying that the MTV has a sad ending. I didn't know that they even have a MTV. So, I went to download it and watch it. Hmm...gals..if you like this song, don't ever watch it.

Ok, that's all. I allow myself to blog for only 8 minutes. Have to study now. Oh, last news, the Pope die, not that it has anything to do with me. Jus that it sounds like a big news.

By the way, 1 question, If you have to choose between drinking coffee and possibly suffer from insomnia tonight or, not drinking and unable to study as effective as you want to, which one will you choose?

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Oh yeah, if you really want to watch the MTV, 百度 and type in 光良 - 童話 MV