Love . Christmas

True meaning of Christmas? I am not sure.

The value of Christmas:
Merry Christmas = $$$$$
Good Christmas = $$$
Bad Christmas = $

Christmas have become so commercialized that for the not-so-fortunate people, it is a burden. I admire the courage of some people who are very willingly to make others' Christmas a memorable one even though it might be embarrassing for them to even give the gift that they bought. Some people value the gift based on the monetary value, not the thoughts, which is very sad for both parties.

I am very lucky. I was invited to numerous Christmas dinner (at least 8) but I turned them down. When I told some of them I already got plan, they don't believe me and I have to convince them with all the details. I can feel the love and care from all these people around me. Some of them call me up the night before to make sure that my plan hasn't change and that I wont be left alone on Christmas. I felt bad because I had to turn them down twice.

I did 2 things on my Christmas break that make me happy:

1. I spent all day fixing a friend's computer (guess what, my 1st time too), setting up a photo booth (sorta), teaching her how to use her camera, computer, internet and how to sell things on eBay. I am hoping that I could help to get her life started before I leave since she is 50++ now without a job and in debt for her son's tuition fees. That had put her into depression the whole summer.
   
2. I chose to spend my Christmas day with this lady who had lost her son a few years ago, suffered from 2 strokes, lost her job due to her stroke and is somewhat disable. My friend thanked me for doing that because she hasn't had a good Christmas for several years.
   

After this Christmas, I found out that the true meaning of Christmas is to show your care and love for the people around you. This is the first Christmas's Christmas for me as we know that I don't celebrate Christmas.

I started to wonder...Shouldn't CNY be the same thing? Shouldn't we care for people around us during that time as well? How sad would it be to be left alone? Has anyone committed suicide because of that?

Cheers.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!
May all your wishes come true!

Happy Birthday!

Today is my GM's birthday. In order to surprise him, we placed his gift, Diet Mountain Dew and Fritos and TP-ed his office when he went out for lunch. Hehehe..Should have used 2 rolls of TP instead of 1..

At first, we were going to stuff his car with Fritos but due to some unexpected incident, we ended up put his gift in his office.

How many people would have a chance to do that to their boss? Glad that I did..Haha..He was actually quite happy that we didn't treat him as a boss today.

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Happy Birthday to another person, RT! Guess you are too drunk to answer your phone? Hehe..Hope you have a good one as you are aging now.. ^-^

每當彈著琴的時候，就會想再回去讀書。
我永遠都不會是個鋼琴家。發現到，我不喜歡被節拍束縛著，喜歡快，就快；想慢，就慢。太過自我了。其實，在不傷害他人的情況下，自我點又何妨呢？
人生，就那麼短暫，或，漫長，就開心點地活下去吧。

Bold

GM came and told me today that J decided to resign his responsibility as Safety Director because, it is too complicated and he doesn't know where to start and, I will have to take up his responsibility, again!

As pissed off as I was, I gave a very bold comment:
"He is 50 something, I am 20 something, when I faced challenges, have I ever just walked away?"
I left both GM and PM in awe and speechless.
I spoke my piece of mind, for better of worse, I don't give a damn.

Confronted my assistant today. It was, ugly. I am being very bold. Oh well, life goes on.

PM once said to everyone in the meeting, "To her (me), there is no such thing as gray area. It is either black or white."
Well, for me to be either black or white, is the only way to assure you that your job is secured. Imagine if I always picked the gray, problem might escalate someday and the company might go out of business. Trust me, it is not easy for me to stand firm on my feet when I am the only person who pushed for the right thing and have to argue with everyone all the time.

Urggghhh...This place is driving me nuts! Can't even take any vacation until after Jan 3rd! Stuck..

ME

NH gave me a hard time today because I did not notice that she recolored her hair and remove all those blonde highlights. +_____+

I think I will never survive well in this female world.

I will not notice if you cut your hair by 1 inch, ok?

I will not notice if you dye your hair from blonde to blonder, ok?

I will not notice if you put on new makeup, ok?

I will not notice if you have a new purse, ok?

I will not notice if you have your medicure and pedicure done, ok?

I will not notice if you put on new clothes, ok?

I will notice if you go from waist length hair to boyish hair cut.

I will notice if you go from brunette to blonde.

I will notice if you have a black eye caused from some fight.

I will notice if you have new pair of boobs or liposuction.

I will notice if you have sex change.

I will notice if you come to work in your bikini.

I will notice if you have new cellphones, new PDA, new camera, new laptops, new GPS, new iPod, new car...any new cool gadgets you can think of.

After so many years in the US, I still haven't learn the woman social world. Too fake..Too many twist and turn..Too many:

"Oh my god! You look so cute!!"
"Woowww, that is such a cool purse!"
"Oh my god! You have such a nice hair cut"
"Oh..I just love the way you look!!"

The worst part is, no matter how bad the hair cut/purse/dress/whatever look, you always have to start with "Oh my god! + good comments"

I rather spend my time in figuring out new technology or knowledge than paying attention to those things.

I will never survive among woman. >__<

Assistant?

Finally, I sat down with my GM and have a good talk with him about my assistant. I wanted him to look at it from an outsider standpoint and tell me what can I do to become a better mentor. I understand that I really don't have patience when it comes to teaching people but, she is not stupid!!

If having an assistant is going to add more troubles and distractions to your job, what is the point of having one?

Felt like I have to babysit her all the time. Woke up at 5am 2 days in a row because I really can't trust her nor leave her working alone. Debated for 15 minutes before I decided to go back to sleep. Sigh..what do I care? +___+

You should be appreciative when your boss gives you the freedom to let you work independently and give you the freedom to adjust your time accordingly. An assignment that takes me 2 hours to complete, it took her 3 days to finish it off. By all means, I only taught/gave her 20% of my workload, imagine giving her 50. I don't want to sound mean by pointing that out to her but, it had came to a point where I started wondering what she is up to everyday at work.
Whenever I page her, it took her forever to come to the office. Whenever I went out looking for her, the one place that I have the most luck of finding her, is the smoking area. The sad part is, she is pregnant!! What is going on with people these days?!?! Aren't you suppose to stay off alcohol, tobacco and possibly caffeine when you are pregnant??? I am not trying to judge but I can't help it! Don't you want what is best for the people you love especially your own child? Sigh...poor little unborn child suffering from brain damage.
Was that the reason I am so dumb because my mum is a 2nd hand smoker? Hehehe.. ^-^ j/k..

Anyhow, now I really have to learn/use/train my management skill. I guess typing out a work schedule for her would help? At the same time cover my own behind?
Please, give me a job before her 90 days introductory period is up. I really don't want to have to be the one to let her go.

The more I step into this position, the more power I have, the more I learn how to cover my own behind. Realized that 40% of my working time were spent on covering my own behind. Sad, isn't it? Part of growing up, I guess?

Sigh..watch your S, my dear friend. >__<

Buzzed...

Ok, you don't drink anything with empty stomach. So buzz now.. +__+

Don't ask me why I am drinking at this time. I am just having a good time right now despite the failure of my new inventions.

The pistachio cranberry biscotti did not turn out as good as I thought it would have been. No wonder I have been using almond on this recipe. You can't used shelled pistachio because they tasted like crap!! I have been opening pistachio for the past few hours to try the recipe again. Alright, I did eat some of them as I was opening them. That's the reason I never used pistachio!!! It is so hard to stop yourself when they tasted so gooooooddd...hehehe..

The banana rum loaf cake, my stupidity caused me to overfill that loaf pan. Now I have the "Over the Hill" Banana Raisin Rum loaf cake. I should have known it better with all the baking experience I had. Sigh..stupid me..

Well, at least, my Soon-do-bu turns out to be pretty darn good! Muahahahaha...Ooo...nice hot warm tofu soup in a cold snowy day..

When I shopped around this weekend, I just realized that by working in this field, I have worked with some of the most finest ingredient you can ever get from the market! Or, you can't even find it in the market. The price for those ingredients are so much cheaper/less expensive (my GM forced me to not say cheaper) than what you can/cannot get from the market! Some of them are just exclusive for the industry! It is such an honor to be able to work /play with them! I am loooving my job now!!

Got some new suggestion from a customer I worked with this week. Hopefully, I got a chance/ time to try his suggestion later. It should be pretty good...just..the amount of time to spend on those scones...hmmmmm....

It was snowing so badly yesterday but I was driving around town despite slightly losing control for once. My phobia of snow caused from last year's experience have gone, I guess? Need an AWD car soon if I still wanted to live in places like this.

Interesting Monday..

Despite all the fun we had on Saturday, we have another fun today!

---> Food Poisoning

Around 50% of the people who attended the Christmas Party ended up sick and as usual, how could I miss out the fun?

5 am

Woke up by stomached, thought that it was because I didn't eat a lot yesterday and I was hungry. So, I went back to sleep.

7 am
Woke up and felt dizzy. Thought that it was hunger too. Ignore it, drink a glass of milk and go to work.

8.45 am
An employee was sent home.

1o am
My Production Manager went home.

11 am
Department of Public Health called me. Apparently, one of our employees had called and told them about this.
2 pm
General Manager went home.
4 pm
Director of Department of Public Health called. Wanted me to send all those sick people home. Yeah, all of them are either didn't come or already went home, except me.
5 pm
Posted notice to all employee to prevent sick people from working on the line.
5.30 pm
Finally got home! Changed into my long pants and thick sweater --> Headed to bed. Passed out immediately. Just woke up 15 minutes ago.

I was feeling hot and cold the whole day at work! I wore a sweater + Columbia jacket and my hands are still ice cold while my face is burning hot! I was pretty much in a non-working state and curled up in my chair trying to make myself feel better. NH even talked about sending me to ER..Hmm...
Don't ask me why I didn't leave early. I didn't drive to work --> My car is buried in ICE! Hahahah...Took me 15 minutes just to be able to open the doors, not to mention the 3 inches ice on my windshield and my tires that are stuck in the ice.

What an interesting Monday..Haven't ate anything the whole day.

Ahhh..Milo tasted so goooooddd!! So glad that I finally feel like eating or drinking something. It is bad when you stared at the food and water, you just know that you needed them but you can't have them because they make you feel like throwing up.

Food Poisoning..Food Poisoning..
Actually, before the party, GM, NH and I were just talking about they spit into our food because we made them come to work when the weather was so bad. I guess it might have really happened!

Alrite..going to dig for more food that I can eat without making the condition worse.

Christmas Party

The Christmas Party that I was dragging my feet to go to, turned out to be a very fun night!

Thanks to Bill and Shelly, otherwise, I wouldn't have make it to the party. We had 7-8 hours of ice rain, follow by rain. Imagine the road. It was several inches of ice slush when I walked outside my apartment and a layer of solid ice. I have to stomp hard to break the ice so that I wont be slipping around when I walk.

My partner couldn't make it due to the weather. It would have been more fun. When we started dancing, I just realized that I have forgotten most of the steps! I was trying to do Swing with SB and...urgghh.. It might have been that I never lead before, but...

I wished that KH was there..Haha..At least I don't have to worry about leading.. We did a lot of different dances. From regular swing, modern dance, clubbing type of dance, folk dance to chicken dance. I really wished that KH was here. He would have fun if he was here and I would have a dancing partner too!!

Guess what song was my GM trying to sing? "I Want a Man"

I video recorded part of his singing..MUAHAHAHA..a tool against him. ^-*

It was a great night. We had fun and danced till the DJ decided to go home.

Thanks to those guys who agreed to go with me even though I was just joking with you guys when I asked. Hehehe..I wouldn't make anyone come to this city just for a Christmas party. Should be glad that I didn't make you guys flew in. Otherwise, you might ended up stuck in the airport.

Just realized that dancing, is still one of the things that make me happy no matter what! Haha..my long lost LOVE!! I found you again!!!

原來，我在墮落著。
原來，我不開心。
原來，我壓力好大。
原來，我很迷茫。
原來，我不知所措。
原來，我很累了。

Inspection..Inspection..

Very stressed with the inspection. There are so many things that they did not do and is quite time consuming to recover those information. There are things that we did not implement here that are required by this "special" customer and I am working my butt off just to get those things in place.
I am only 1 person, I can't do it all! I went to work at 5.30am and get off at 5.30pm. That's quite enough for me.

Trying to convince GM to shut the production down for a week or so to get things done and free up those people to help me but..as stubborn as he always is, I don't see that happening! We are not so busy, we can shut things down! The inspection is what determine our fate with this "special" customer and all other private label customers. When will these people ever put their ego down and put what's good for the company first?! I am getting more and more frustrated!!

What if we don't get a Superior? Is my job hanging on a thread now? Going up is good, going down is always a No No.

By the way, they hired me an "assistant". Sigh..

I am ready to crash...

I want a Life!

I am lucky, I am blessed.

Felt so bad for this lady who can only sit at home by herself for Thanksgiving. It is sad that she has kids but none of her kids is hosting a Thanksgiving dinner nor inviting her to the Thanksgiving dinner they are going to. All her son are going to their wife's family for Thanksgiving. She has disability that prevents her from working and she has to sit at home everyday. On a special day like this, she still has to sit at home as usual. Sigh..it must be tough for her..Wish there is something that I can do for her. Hopefully her Christmas will not be like that.

In future, if I am going to host a Thanksgiving dinner or a Christmas party or whatsoever, I will invite all the single people that I know. No one should be left alone on special days like these. As for me, it doesn't really affect me as much cause I don't really celebrate these holidays anyway.

Very lucky that I am being invited to so many Thanksgiving dinner.

Stupid AIB audit is scheduled on Dec 31st, 2007!!! I am stuck! Guess who scheduled them? Stupid Me! No NY, No Alabama.. >_<

FINALLY!!!

Wah Wah Wah!!

Finally, I recovered!!!

Finally, I can walk through my living room without having to skip around!!

Finally, I got everything unpacked, packed and ready to ship!!

Finally, I can stow my stupid luggages away!!

Finally, I got my appetite back!!

Finally, I am sleeping at MY time!!

Finally, I am ME!!!

Haven't been me since the day I left HK. The thought of having to come back just killed me. I was not up for anything, not even the food I loved! No wonder I am not gaining as much weight as last time when I went back and my luggage was not filled with clothes and shoes! Hehehe..

Since I came back, I have been going to bed around 9 to 10pm and waking up since 4.30am! Tonight, finally I don't feel like going to bed so early.

Finally, I am BACK!!

Apology goes to my friends in SF and MPS. My mind was pre-occupied with so many things going on and I was completely out of it..

It is nice to be back.

我們

寫給妳們，
這麼多年沒見，這麼久沒聊天，還是不感覺陌生，很令人欣慰。
我們依然是我們。
看見妳們都個有成就，真的很為你們感到驕傲。當年無知懵懂的我們已漸漸長大了。
好笑的是，正如妳們所說的，當年最不愛讀書的我，竟然是讀最多書的那一個。
在港機場讀了那本日記，那本已被我遺忘了的日記，不小心讓眼淚濕了眼眶。原來我們都是會因對方哭泣而哭泣的朋友。
始終認為，朋友，不需要天天見面，不需要每天黏在一塊兒，只要心裡有對方，那就足夠了。

固執

Call me stubborn, call me picky, I just believed that it is time for me to find something that will make me happy.

Having a GC does make a huge difference. Anyhow, believe in destiny. If it is meant to be, it will happen.

Found out that finding the perfect job, is like finding the perfect life partner. Is it impossible? Am I really that picky? ^-^ I still believe in destiny!!
Sigh...There is no cure for my naiveness.

My all time favorite singer! Her voice is always so calming and most of her songs are very good. I still don't understand the MV though.

URGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!

Don't fucking do anything if you don't know anything!!

Messed up the whole system and then came to me and tell me, "Oh, it is much better now! I fixed your mistakes!" If it is a mistake to start up with, how the hell do you think I came up with the weekly production for the company?? How the hell you think I kept everything in place for the past 10 months?? Things that you don't understand is not a mistake! If you asked, you would understand!

What a fucking mess!! You are trying to watch how I suffer? Well, let me make you suffer first and we will go from there! What a fucking bitch!

Pardon my French, I am really mad that I have to come back to fix all these mistakes done by those smartasses.

Muahahaha..Came back to a freaking mess. Learned to shut one eye, open one eye now.

BACK

As much as I hated to say this, but I am back.

It was a short but fruitful trip. Attended the wedding in HK and met up with old friends. The time is not enough! It was too short for family time, too short for friends catching up, too short to meet all the friends, too short.......

Even though there are consequences that I need to face, I am still glad that I went back. It was worth it! I miss them so much.

This trip also helped me to find another side of me and realized how much I have changed since I started working. It was a great trip.

No matter how tired I am, the thought of tomorrow makes me suffer from insomnia. The reality finally hits!

Praying hard. Sigh..People are not trustworthy, especially people from work. It is like a politic war field, cover your own behind is the only way to survive.

Will update more when I got all the pictures. Silly and lazy me didn't bring my camera. Hehehe..

Yippie!!!

Going home! Going home! Going home!
Multitasking is a skill that I mastered it so well. Been running and rushing like crazy lately. Finally, finished return all phone calls and emails. I am set to go! Just 1 more thing to do..typing out my work directions for my manager.

Completely stressed out! My mind was going round and round on what needs to be done before I leave, I am going insane!

Today, will be a waste of my time. Sigh..what a stupid idea to start up with.

Tomorrow, will be another waste of my time. So dumb to even suggested it.

Tuesday and Wednesday, I have to attend the OSHA training course, which means that I might have to work till 10pm in order to get the production going on Wednesday; which means that I might have to drive myself to the airport on Thursday early morning and pay that $204 on the parking.

Shouldn't have take this sick leave on Monday.

I am dumb.

Eternal Flame

Finally, I found out the name of the song! Still can't find it yet, but, youtube would do it for now.
I have heard someone sang this song once when I was young and the chorus stuck in my head since. For no reason at all, the song came up in my mind again. I really like the opening and the chorus..so nice..

1 mystery solve.

Good night.

Think...

While I was planning a shelf life testing for private label product for a specific customer, started to realize that I do enjoy and love the degree I held.
I was reading through the materials and information from the internet and I felt that kind of adrenaline rush that I had while I was taking my biochemistry back in graduate school. I started questioning myself:

1. Is another job going to allow me to work on what I acually enjoy doing and allow me to learn what I enjoy learning?

2. Is going back to school and follow the academic route would be what I truly wanted?

Started to wonder again.

NH told me that god has a way for everyone. I do believe in destiny and I do believe that god does exist, but I believe that striving for what I want is the way to live my life instead of waiting for god to hand it to me.

I forgot my glasses at home and now my brain went blur too..hehehe..

Ready to Sail!!

It has been quite a smooth sailing week. Mostly due to the fact that my GM no longer cared, and thus, he stopped pushing me to the edge. Well, my swearing and cursing techniques are upgraded to a higher level.

Now only I realized that I can be a REAL EVIL when I wanted to. I was lying in the bed trying to recall the last time I ever plotted something like that against someone and I can't even recall when that was. Glad that I am still me. I guess if you pushed a person to the edge, they will turn into someone else.

I am not sure if everything happened at the right time. It seemed like it is the right time for me to find a new job, but with the vacation that is coming up, it is really hard for me to decide when is the best quit date and how the visa process is going to be affected. I do not want to be turned down when I try to get into the U.S. but, I wanted to go back still! It is a tough call. I wanted to get out of this job ASAP but at the mean time, I wanted to attend the wedding and see my friends too! I think I am asking for too much. I will just have to go with whatever life throws me and hoping that everything will turn out fine. It might mean that I might have to give up the air ticket. Sigh..I am broke!!

It is quite obvious that the job market is opening up for international students in my field. I am very glad to receive calls from companies and recruiters. Now, I have the confident to not let my desperation pushed me into another yucky job like the one I have now. I told a recruiter that day when she asked if I wanted to work for the largest ice cream manufacturing company in the world, and my answer was NO. I have heard bad things about that company and I do not even bother to work for them. She said she got another opening in NE and I know what company she is referring to and honestly, I am not interested either. Well, we will see how things will turn out for me. Anyhow, I still have to juggle between a good job, and getting stuck in midwest/small town.

I am very grateful for all the people around me who are trying to help me. My Toastmaster's friends, vendors I worked with, and even my boss! It is a blessing for me to have friends like them.

Alright, wish me luck on these two jobs I am currently working on. I really wanted them so badly!!

Moving on, Moving Forward

Finally, things that bothered me so much throughout the weekend had came to an end.

I went in and talked to GM for about an hour after work today. This is the first time I am being so honest to him. I told him everything that is on my mind and told him about I almost flipped Lord Voldemort off in that meeting and walked out. He was surprised.

GM apologized to me on behalf of Lord Voldemort for everything that I have been through and everything that I had to put up with. GM and NH told me that they have never worked in a workplace like this before either in their 20 - 30++ years of working life. Tried to convince and comfort me that working life is not this bad at all. In fact, they might be right. There are many times when I tried to tell my friends what is going on, I am having a hard time saying it because everything seemed so surreal, is like I imagined all that. It is just unbelievable! They told me that when I get a new job, things will come easy because nothing will be as bad as this job. I certainly hope so.

After calming down and thinking it through, being able to work with them is a blessing to start up with. They are one of those people who you can trust and you can count on. The harmony in the office was perfect but perfect things, are just something that meant to be destroyed under Lord Voldemort's eyes. It is sad to see things go down like this.

At least, right now, we all know what our next steps are.
At least, right now, I am not as lost as I was.

I am in need of a lot of luck! Please, pray for me..

The GM is thinking of quitting at the end of this month.
I didn't get out from work until 10 last night. It is sickening.

Was having a hard time falling asleep last night. Even when I was sleeping, I know my brain is thinking about my work, it seemed like it was never rested. Woke up at 5a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep. At that point, I was almost ready to just type out a resignation letter and walk away. All these nightmares and insomnia are just not worth it!

My ticket is not cancel yet. I am preparing myself for the worst. I am so home sick right now.

Shame on him that he thought he could use that few thousand dollars to make us split another person's job when he is going to save 52K out of the whole deal.
You know what, you can take that money and shove it up your ass! I could not care less.

I need a new job. I wonder how things would be like if the GM and I walked out at the same time. I wished and prayed for that to happen SOON.

我做不下去，我挨不下去，我熬不下去了！
每天都累得像去打戰回來一樣，更糟的是什麼都沒學到！而且整個人像患了憂鬱症般，會。。。這幾天都睡不好，昨天還因為發惡夢而被嚇醒了睡不著。已經不記得最後一次被夢嚇醒是什麼時候了。
你們也越來越過份！不是問我可不可以留下來，而是告訴我留下來！他媽的！你他媽的薪水是我的三倍以上吶！干嘛我還必需做得比你還像頭牛呢？現在還想利用三份之一的三十巴仙來想讓我們為你做牛做馬，你去死吧！你以為老娘昨天才從娘胎滾出來喔？你那區區的一千塊，就想我為你賣命，想我跟那死雜種一起合作讓他點，你發你他媽的春秋大夢吧！
在開會的時候，我不知用了多大的忍耐力，才沒讓我的中指在你那低賤的腦袋里烙下一個讓你畢生難忘的印像！

從我懂事以來，我從來都不曾那麼瞧不起一個人，而你，是第一個。從來不曾那麼厭惡一個人，而你，是第一個。

我只想告訴你：
你。去。死。吧！！！！！

1st Module

The module was a success despite the fact that I forgot a word during the speech. First time ever, stood there and can't recall that word at all! So awful but, funny. I even joked about it later in my speech. Well, a mistake is a mistake, right? There is no point why you shouldn't joke about it, right? Luckily LO saw that part of the module when we were on our way there and she yelled out that word for me. So funny! She saved me a trip from going back to the lectern, flipped through the module to find that word!

I think I perform better when I don't prepare for it. I only read through the module 3 times and practiced once (that's the reason I forgot the word). The Regional Governor was there and she asked me to be the Educational speaker for the Regional Competition! We will see how I perform when there are more unfamiliar faces...I might start to stutter this time.

Hohohoho... Almost done with my CL. That's what I am after, not the CTM. I don't particularly like speaking due to my limited use of Vocab. I am not good with words. I don't like it when I kept repeating the same word over and over because my brain is flat, I can't find any other synonyms in my brain! Should read more books.

There are so many things that I should do but I never did. I need to readjust my lifestyle from this week onward. Less useless and meaningless web surfing, less online movie, less McD, less social, more sleep, more job hunting. Finger crossed!

Have to go back to work tomorrow. Well, if that could buy me a cover, so be it! Hopefully Voldermot will not be there tomorrow. I don't miss them that much to wish to see them on a Sunday. Hmm..think about it, maybe it will be good too. In this case, they will see me working, thought that I cared and that might help reduce their suspicions.

It is a mind game. I just realized that not everyone is made for that kind of game. We are all very very different! Interesting, isn't it? I will do whatever it takes to get myself out of there. As for now, quitting is the fastest but least effective revenge. Even my GM told me last Friday he is prepared to walk out anytime. I should get out before he does. Otherwise, I will be on the judging plate if he walked out and that would be even harder for me to get a job.

Maybe I should start typing out a Resignation letter and post it in front of my computer to remind me how bad I need to get out from there. Hohoho..

Time for bed...dreaming too much..Praying for a change..Striving for a change..Trying for a change..

Bla Bla Bla...

Never had I despised someone so much that I would imagine slapping him and beating him up in my mind when I look at him. How could a person be so awful, so full of himself, so jackass? The worst part is, Lord Voldermot thinks he is the GOD.

It is a sandwich! I am the meat! Why does it always have to be like that? I was the meat between the Sales M and the Plant M. Now I am the meat again between the new Sales M and the GM. Chinese saying is right, "Two tigers cannot live in the same mountain in peace". To avoid being the meat in between the two slices of bread, I said it clearly to MG (Sales M) what he needs to do to get me working on things for him. I actually preferred working on things for him. Hehe..

I really appreciate what NH did for me.
Lord Voldermot hired a Psychologist/Counselor and have us take all those personality test. We all then have to sit down with her in private and tell her what bother us the most in this company. Right now, LV thinks that the lady is the god but when he hears what the lady has to tell her after all these interviews, he might think that she is just full of crap. People will not change if they are always in the denial state.
The Counselor and I did not click. She can feel that I will not say much to her. I even argued with her. When I told her about Draco Malfoy in the company, she said that that person will be fire. I told her, "No, he won't". She said, "Yes, he will." I replied, "I don't think so." Hahaha..She was surprised when I take my stand so strongly.
I am anxious to see what is going to happen next.

This is the psychology test that we were asked to take. It is quite accurate after reading my own profile. So weird. What is yours?

Dream

Dream that wakes you up.
Dream that messes up with your brain.
Dream that tells you what you really longed for.
Dream that reminds you what you had.
Dream that makes you felt more lost than ever.

What does it mean?

For some reason, I can't even explain why, I just needed some strength tonight. Very worry and terrified with what I am going to do and what I will need to face. I just needed some strength. Please tell me everything will be alright and it will be over soon.

BITCHOLOGY

Got this forwarded email from a coworker and it sounded so true!!

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When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch.
When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.
Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.

It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch , so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.

B - Babe

I - In

T - Total

C - Control of

H - Herself

B = Beautiful

I = Intelligent

T = Talented

C = Charming

H = Hell of a Woman

B = Beautiful

I = Individual

T = That

C = Can

H = Handle anything

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Cheers!

Hmm..

Intellectual conversation with a good sense of humor.
Smart.
It was a great dinner and conversation. Haven't met someone so interesting in quite some time. Human being are unique and diverse. That's what make the world interesting.

Haven't met someone who is that quick in coming back without insulting you or the other party for quite a while.
This one is too smart.

Things are getting more and more interesting.

Another Experience

Sigh. People are selfish.
When will I learn that lesson? I wonder.
How stupid am I? Very.
How naive am I? Too much to do me any good.

MM was too busy/scared to fire one of the temporary people in our company. He had me do it. Everything happened too fast, too fast for me to even step back and realized that I don't have to do it because I am not responsible for that.

It had been a really rough day. I am just glad that KB help me took care of it. I really don't know what to say when she started going ballistic about why we are letting her go and screaming at me. At one point, I thought she was going to slap me.
I still remember vividly the look she gave me. My hands and feet went ice cold when she shoot me that look. I think my face went pale too cause after seeing my reaction, KB told me to call on him and let him handle this kind of situation from now on if I ever have to do it again.

After I got back to the office and started to recover from everything, it just dawned on me that I don't have to do this, this is not part of my job. I am very disappointed with MM. He is one of the people I trusted the most, and he let me down.

When obstacles occur, you see others true color. When will I learn to learn from my mistakes and stop being naive and stupid??
Thanks to KB, otherwise, things would have been worse. Well, there is always a first time for everything. Everything is a learning experience. Yet, I am still terrified that she might come to my house and do something to me. It is not hard to find my address since one of the other temp guy is my neighbor's brother and my name is in the phone book directory. I should probably consider getting a roommate.

Life have been throwing me a lot of lemon lately and I am very busy making lemonade right now. Will be opening up Lemonade stand pretty soon. Support, anyone?

Cheers.

Rude Awakening

At the end, just like what I predicted, PM got fired.
At the end, just like what I expected, Draco Malfoy came back.
Lord Voldemort was trying to make PM look like a dumbass in front of me by telling me half the truth (or he doesn't even know the whole truth) but he only makes himself look like an idiot to me.

It is so hard when you have to agree with something that you totally disagree on. Am I really that good on covering up what I truly think and feel? I guess I am in this case or he is just too dumb to see it. Somewhat felt like this kind of attitude of not speaking up is a sign of losing your back bone. Oh well, what's the point of getting your ass on fire anyway? It is not like I am a space ship that need my ass to be on fire in order to reach the moon. It is not worth it. Nothing is worth it, period.

Talked to RT that day and after our conversation, I started realized that I am in the same situation as he is, which is not good for me at all. I have been putting out fire for mistakes others made, work on things that is not even my job and all other stuff that I couldn't possibly get the credit for. I was pretty upset and frustrated after Friday's meeting when GM kept throwing things at me. I was trying to find out why and how to resolve it. Now, I know why. I think it is time for me to just watch my own back and stop caring about other things. Will I able to do that? I think the question is more like whether they will allow me to?

I am very disappointed by the GM. PM got fired on Wednesday night and in the Friday morning meeting, he expected me to resume all PM's job in addition to what I have been doing and asked me for the report. I was caught off-guard and was really disappointed. I left the facility around 12am on Thursday night, went back on Friday night to shut down the place and went back on Saturday again to close things down and yet, that doesn't seem to be enough for him. Extra hours you worked, doesn't mean anything to them.
I don't recall my job description has a 24-hours on-call on it but, my phone can ring at anytime of the day! Weekends, 3.30am and all sort of time you can think of. I don't mind giving my life to my job but it has to be some job that even worth it! Or even someone or some boss who is worth it! This job, is not worth it.

Told KO about the PM thing and he asked me to go for that position. Yeah, right, like I don't have enough things to do. Besides, that's GM's biggest fear and if I step on that, I really need to watch my back very closely.

Sigh..started develop hatred against my workplace. Luckily, I know that my hatred didn't go beyond there.

人不可貌相

吃著桃子的時候，對"人不可貌相"這句話產生了一些疑問。

一顆外表漂亮，口感很好，又甜又可口的桃子，吃著、吃著，慢慢吃到中心的時候，才發現，核是發霉的！綠色的霉菌，資意地在核心中繁殖著，令人看了都覺得想吐！趕緊把桃子丟了，當時，第一個想法就是，"人不可貌相"。但，再深思一層，卻發現其實我在買的時候根本沒機會或無法知道那顆桃子是好的、還是壞的，除了把他切開了才能知道。

吃桃子，我們有機會把他買回來切開來審查，但，要點是，我們必須先擁有那個桃子。如果不是屬於你的桃子，你怎麼能夠把他切開呢？你去買個桃子，你總不會告訴那老闆，要他把桃子切開來給你審查吧？那你買了後，回家把他切開來，壞了，也不可能拿回去向老闆退貨吧？（除非你真的很欠揙）好吧，買個桃子，不會很貴，丟個壞桃子，也不會很難，對人呢？
我們是否有機會把那個人剖開來看看他們的內心是否是狠毒的呢？如果一個人就像那桃子一樣美麗、甜蜜、爽口，我們又要如何去發覺呢？

買桃子，你還有機會可以丟掉壞的桃子，人呢？我們是否可以買了個人，然後發現他是個爛桃子而把他拋棄呢？那，拋棄爛桃子的人會不會也是個殘酷的人呢？還是我們可以削掉爛的部分，睜隻眼，閉隻眼，得過且過地，把那顆桃子吃下去，暗地里希望自己不會因此而病死了？而且，要發現一個人是不是個爛桃子，有時候也需要蠻長的一段時間吧？因為人畢竟不是桃子，你不可能說要剖開就剖開，也得看那人願不願意。

帶眼識人。

Blur Blur Me..(cont'd)

Guess what time I got home on that Friday night after I went back to work? 5.30a.m.
Sigh..I am turning into a slave. Working for 21 hours! Even though I took 2 hours off after 6p.m. and went back home, but yet, 21 hours of working without any sleep!

After I went back to the plant, I ran into Lord Voldemort and all he said was, "Oh, you came back to help!" No thank you, no nothing. He is still mad at me for not being there on the Thursday night when they work till 3a.m.? So what?? What about when I worked from 3a.m. till 6p.m.? Were you there? Just Shut Up! Bunch of bull crap. I hate rich people! They are usually self-centered and unsympathetic.

Lord Voldemort asked Draco Malfoy to come back. Haha..It is so dramatic. So fun to watch. It is fun when you stop caring. Glad that I still can put up a smile and some humor when it is 4.30a.m. Well, you can be mad but still couldn't change a thing or you can choose to face it with happiness..Glad that I chose the later. It took me 2 days to fully recover from the physical tiredness. It does wear you out.

I didn't go back Saturday nor Sunday. Well, we will hear about some "teasing" tomorrow and questions too. WHATEVER.
1 more month, or maybe 4 more. Looking forward to it.

Despite all these, it had been a great weekend though. Thanks to all my TI friends. Yohoo!!! 1 more thing crossed off my list!

名字

嗯，我老媽和老豆似乎覺得他們生的女兒性格還不夠奇怪，所以想要我再換個名，換成“綺”字。天哪！干嘛要個那麼女性化的名字呀？奇怪的奇還好，反正我本來都有點怪了的，加個絲字邊，似乎怪理怪氣的，真搞笑！

我還好，他們還想把老大的名換成“嫦”，嫦娥的嫦！很不給面子地，我馬上暴笑得從床上滾了下來。不是說我姐有什麼不好，可嫦娥的“嫦”，未免太。。。*咳咳*

他們說，我們倆的名字太不普遍了，別人很難記得。哎，要普遍嘛，好，我就換個“乞”，乞丐的乞或“欺”，欺侮的欺或“棄”，拋棄的棄，總可以了吧？我媽快要被我氣死了。其實我該換個“气”字，反正我那麼會气人！嘿嘿嘿。。。

最後，我干脆告訴我媽，我姐就用那“嫦”字，而我呢，就用麒麟的“麒”，反正兩個都是不存在的傳說而已，而且，每個人都知道這幾個字。

好好的“菡”字或“萁”字有什麼不好呢？如果換個名真的能改命的話，為何還會有那麼多人每天都在過著痛苦的生活呢？外國人的英文名，又能怎麼算呢？

不但得換名，還得買個名牌來帶，真。。。

Blur Blur Me..

7.47a.m.! 7.47a.m.!! I can't believe my eyes when I woke up this morning. I have 13 minutes left to get ready PLUS get to the office. That's the consequence of not buying a new alarm clock!

Got to the office 1 minute before 8a.m. That's a very great way to start the day (Ok, I DID brush my teeth).

I started working on the inventory and checking on the orders that are going out that day, found out that we are short on certain products. Running back to the factory, changed into my uniform and started working on the line to get the products ready. While running around moving products from 1 pallet to another, I got my foot stuck in between 2 pallets while I was running and..the next thing I knew, my butt is on the floor and my shoe is stuck in the pallet! Now, I got a huge bruise on my knee that just recovered from running and I can hardly squad down on that leg! Urggghhhh...

After all the running and rushing, I decided to take a break. I went into the office and Lord Voldemort showed up and "teased" me about not showing up last night and they worked till 3a.m. Errr..dude, what do you expect? My annual salary is half the market price and more than 50% less than what you are paying the PM and I am doing half of his job! Give me a break! Well, that doesn't really bother me that much. I started not caring. Haha..fire me, if you are willing to. I know you wont cause you can't find another cheap labor like me anywhere else.

Get out from work quarter after 6pm and received a txt from a friend. He has to go back to HK because of family issue. Sigh..Hope everything will turn out fine for him. Guess I wont be seeing him in Oct then..

Time to go back to work. GM called me after I got home. He can't figure out the password to turn on my computer. Ha.Ha. Now I need to go back to help them before everybody turns into a bigger demon. Sigh..some of them worked for 18++ hours yesterday.
Life is tough, isn't it?
Earning money is not easy, isn't it?
Supporting a family is not easy, isn't it?
I am so grateful for the education and the brain I have. At least I know, things are going to get better as long as I am willing to try. The more I work, the more I know how to appreciate what I have right now.

Praying for KH. Hope everything will be fine for you.

星期天，和朋友去了另一个教会，牧师要我们祷告，我却站在教会中，思考着，有什么好祈祷的呢？发现到，我无所要求。

我始终相信，该来的，始终会来，该发生的，怎么也逃不过。是种对生命投降、对人生放弃的心态吗？还是种过于乐观的看法？

我忍你！！他妈的狗娘养的死杂种！！

Just another bad day..

My favorite song. Cheers me up every time when I am having a bad day. The music video is quite cute..

Disappointed.
Why would a person take the credit away from you? When things happened, all he knows is find out who made the mistake and followed by screaming, yelling, and swearing. EVERY SINGLE TIME. Every time, I ended up finding the solutions and fix it right away and minimized the loss. I have always trusted him and confided in him with things going on around this place. I am very disappointed. I despise people like him. I used to not care and didn't notice about it but when it kept happen over and over again, I started realized that, he is just like every other people here. It is very, very disappointing. Am I really such a big threat to everyone? Why are they so afraid of giving me credit for what I did? That's just life, isn't it? It's time to accept the truth and reality about life.

All the production we have been doing for the past few days, ended up being a waste of time and money. All the fuzz and stress we went through, all for nothing. Troubles and problems kept surface here and there. Equipments, careless mistakes, weather, workers...all you can name it. I have never seen so many problems occurred at once in a day since I started working here! Tiring. They are looking at a Saturday production. Sigh..Felt so sorry for the production workers. I am NOT coming in this Saturday. Fire me, for what I cared, and, SCREW you.

Wish I can fast forward a month, then I am looking at a possible career change. Urgh..this visa thing is killing me.

Going to bed..have to get up at 2 to go to work tomorrow. Need some alcohol to put me to sleep. Hahaha..More than half bottle of red wine is gone, I should stop now. Switching from beer to red wine since someone kept pushing me to try drinking wine. Hehehe..

Ooops! I did it again!

Did another prank on my friend, HM that day (he is in HK now).

Me: Grandpa HM!
HM: "Nothing"? Muahahaha
Me: Got thing!!!
HM: What happened??
Me: I got married!! :D
HM: Who is soooo lucky?
Me: for visa purpose lah..is a fake marriage.. :D
HM: ...............are you kidding?
-------silence-------
Me: Wai Wai!! Heart attack??
HM: Really Heart Attack
Me: Wah..so geng..Still can message wor..Not calling 911?
HM: ....................Can I call you in 10 minutes?
Me: No...will scare me to death!! I am just kidding..Hahahaha..
HM: ....................I surrender..Can never win you on your pranks..
Me: YEAH..It is lonely to always be the winner.. *cry*

I know I am Evil *stare at you innocently* But, I can't help it! Muahahaha..
Sorry, HM. But I did deliver you the good news though..even though it took me a while to convince you to believe it.

Blacked Out!

Blacked out!! Complete Black out!!

Out of nowhere and out of a sudden, the whole apartment went dark! I was in the shower and was reaching for my shampoo when everything just went dark! I am just glad that the black out is a step ahead of me. Otherwise, you will see a crazy woman with shampoo on top of her head running around the apartment trying to find some light. Fortunately, I was cooking earlier and was burning some scented oil to get the cooking smell out of my house. There, my only light!

I went on to shut all my windows and double locked my door before I went back to shower (side effect of watching too much thriller movie). As I was done showering, I was doing the regular lotion and all that, I looked at myself in the mirror and remembered one of the scene in one of the ghost movies/stories I heard. I think it was that if you light a candle (it has to be red or white, can’t remember) at 12am and peel a red apple in circle without breaking it in front of the mirror, you will see the face of your future husband. I think there is also something about if you break the peel, your future husband or yourself will die. Something like that.. I also heard about if you stared into the mirror for a long time at 12am, you will see something..and blah blah blah.. All those scary things. Anyhow, it kinda freaked me out. I quickly get things done and get away from the mirror cause the only candle I have is a red candle that looked like those my parents usually used to pray the god.

Now you know why I am afraid of dark!

First time ever, I am stuck by myself in complete darkness in an apartment that I don’t feel safe in. Phone is out, internet is out, TV is out, radio is out, everything is out including my cell phone that doesn’t have service in my apartment! I am just glad that my laptop is fully charged. That should last me for a few hours before I have to go to bed.

Now, I really need to change my service provider.

Now, I realized why people in the old times have more kids! ^-^

Now, I am officially a grown up!! Muahahaha..Ignore me, please.

Dessert Craving

Suddenly, I am craving for cheesecake. Not the cheesecake that you buy it from cheesecake factory, is the cheesecake that you can hardly find it in the US. I remembered the cheesecake years ago on a friend's birthday party. Didn't manage to get the recipe from my friend. Hmm..

I am a dessert/carb lover and I can eat dessert for dinner. CL can definitely be my witness on that. Since I came here, not much dessert in this country impressed me. Some of them are good, I don't deny that but they just never really THAT good. Their dessert might be good when you take the first bite but after a few bites, you just got tired of it or it got too sweet. Out of all the dessert I ate in this country, I particularly dislike cheesecake. They filled you up too quickly and their texture were never really good. Usually they are very dense and doesn't really melt in your mouth when you eat them. Ice cream cake, is not my favorite either. Their ice cream cake is just ice cream and it is boring! Still remembered KY made me that ice cream cake last year on my birthday..so nice...I want more..

It is time to buy and indulge in my kind of dessert. 2 more months! Hahahahaha..That's actually one of the things that I definitely do whenever I got a chance to go home.

At the meantime, let's see if I can get the recipe from my friend. Might challenge the cake baking business again after so many failures..Muahahahaha..

Don't read if you are already depressed..

None of us slept well last night. In fact, most of us didn't sleep last night. This whole thing have went way out of control. It is like watching a soap opera. It is just ridiculous!! After Voldemort and Aunt Petunia are gone, hopefully, everything can return to normal, even though Draco Malfoy is still here. Felt very bad for Ron Weasley. He might be the next one out the door since Draco Malfoy is working under him now. Sigh..there is just so much I can do for them..

First time ever, I swore so excessively at work and in front of my colleague. Yes, I do not swear at work. My temper is well controlled at work and I don't speak when I am mad at work.

Started realized that I am the only loner at work. KH brought up that point. She ran home crying on her lunch break and refused to come back. She called GM (her husband) at work and was crying on the phone. Yes, she has GM and her kids to talk to. Yes, they have their significant others and/or family member to cry to. Yes, I don't have anyone. Yes, I kept my mouth shut. Yes, I kept things to myself. KH asked GM how could I deal with all these by myself? Yes, how did I? Yes, how do I? Sleepless nights? Nightmare? Excessive drinking (caffeine, ok?)? Sigh...
I think, I stopped caring. When you work for a dumb ass and a bitch, you just stopped caring. The day I was being betrayed, they day I was being publicly accused and insulted, I stopped caring.

Had such a nightmare that GM is quitting for the past few days made me tossed and turned the whole night. Not fun.

Trying to evaluate myself from an outsider's perspective and find out what is best for me.

Work..

Yes, I have 18 kids

There are help and cure for almost everything except STUPIDITY and there are NO research study currently being conducted to cure this disease.

For some reason, I really don't know, GM pulled me into his office today and told me that only he and Voldemort can do the job of letting me go. Hmm..wonder who said something to him yesterday? Anyway, thanks for making me feel better.

Found the culprit of the whole problem, finally! Yet, not much we can do about it. Will try a little testing here and there. Mother nature does play a big role in product quality. Salute! Please, let me have a smooth winter production..

Production started picking up now. Been running production 13++ hours a day and this Saturday, is another working day. Should I go? Or should I not? Probably should..sigh..Foresee hell coming.

Involved in the decision of letting someone go. Throwing your temper at work is absolutely inappropriate especially when you start throwing the product around and affected the quality of the product. I dislike and despise immature work attitude. Sigh..why does it always have to be like that? Wish we are running a charity house like McD, hire those people with slight disability and I can use my sympathy and don't have to let them go. Tried to convince GM to put her into some other easier position but..

Being a 25-years old in a management position is really not easy! Very often, you have to answer questionsss about how many kids you have right now!! Gosh! I have 18 kids, ok? Their age range from 26 - 62. Sigh..I am such a successful mum and housewife! Hahaha..Being asked 3 times within a week! Speechlesss.....

CC #7 - Probiotics

Ho.Ho.Ho.Ho....Merry E-C!!
HO.HO.HO.HO....MERRY E-C!!
SUCCEED!!

Tried something different today in the speech I gave. I am quite surprise that it turned out better than what I thought it would have been and they actually liked it. Never thought that I would make it. I was very hesitated and have ZERO confident that I could pull the stunt. I made a boring and technical topic into a humorous and interesting one (they were actually cracking up!!). I surprised myself, indeed. I have a sense of humor? HA.HA.

4 down, 6 more to go! Yeah, I am very lazy. All my speeches took less than 4 hours to prepare. I did my ice-breaker as an impromptu and my friend was surprised cause I prepared the speech in front of him and ended up giving a completely different speech on the spot. Still have to work on my accent and pronunciation (Grrrr...).

HA。HA。HA。

Evil 1: you have to learn how to lie anyway might as well learn it now

Evil 2: ..........................

Dance..

It is like a slow dance..
It is like a beginner Waltz..
Back and Forth, Forth and Back..
One step forward, One step right..
One step backward, One step left..
Step after step, Dancing around the same square..
Spin after spin, Twirling around the same spot..
Keep the distance, Keep the square..
Keep the elegance, Keep the pride..
When the music stops, so does the people, so does the step, so does the dance, so does the chance..
No risk, no lost; No risk, no gain..

My ballet teacher once told (or yelled at) me, "Dance, dance freely, dance bravely, dance like no one is watching, dance like there is no limit! Dance around the dance floor and quit dancing on the same spot!"

A beautiful, elegant, solo ballet utilized the entire dance floor. Why do the beginner Waltz?

恍．慌．荒

人吶，為何要互相傷害呢？雖然是被傷害了，反過來看看，卻是慶幸的。一張白紙有兩個面，為何一定要固執地只看其中一面呢？希望她明白。

有些壞習慣是該戒掉的。有開始，就必須有結束。反過來走走。陽光總在風雨後。

心．欣．辛

Meteor Shower!

Meteor shower is tonight, 1am CT. Gotta work tomorrow, no meteor shower for me. Am I lack of romantic cell? Hahahaha..
Expecting them, waited for them and see them, there wont be surprise in there. See them when you least expected, that would be better. Just like love?
KH said, use your imagination and imagine there would be a meteor shower everyday. Optimism? Good point though.

I did a very out of my expectation thing on Friday. I can't believe I am that straightforward to a friend that I haven't known for the period long enough for me to be that bloody honest. That's another thing I learn from work, "Say it as it is, No bias, Be fair". Maybe should evaluate what causes my short temper a bit..hehe..

KH once asked me, "Refused to grow up is more pathetic? Or growing up is more pathetic?" Found the answer today, "Growth is not an option, is a mandate".

Time to wind down from a nice weekend and prepare for work tomorrow. Hopefully, I can find the courage and strength to ask for what I want this time. I don't like to lie but, if I have to, I have to. Wish me luck!

Happy Birthday.
It has been almost six years since we last spoke and many more years to come. Hope everything is well with you.
I still remember your last birthday and how proud I was of you for turning into a young man with many friends who loved you.
I still remember how much you loved us and how you were trying to save a huge piece of your cake for your little brother on your birthday party.
I still remember how surprised I was when our house was filled with your friends. You were a shy little boy with a short temper and I have never seen nor expected you to be a grown up with many friends surrounding you.
I still remember how we gang up to bully our little brother on your last birthday we spent together.
I still remember our last few conversations sitting on the couch in the living room in the middle of the night.
I still remember the last fight we had.
I still remember picking you up with my red scooter after my tuition class and how heavy you were and how you were trying to balance the motorcycle for me at the stop lights.
I still remember waking you up in the middle of the night because I am afraid of the dark.
I still remember mix and match my new clothes on New Year’s Eve and bugged you for opinion when you were reading comics.
I still remember you waited for me to bring you shopping for clothes after all your clothes were stolen.
I still remember you waited and checked on me when I stayed out late at night with friends.
I still remember you ran around the airport with our little brother trying to find a money exchange counter to give me more USD before I leave the country.
I still remember everything...
I still don't understand why you have to go and I know I never will...but I believe we will see each other again.
I miss you and I am sorry that I never told you I love you.

All In!

Made a huge decision at work today. Threw away 10,000 dollars worth of product. In fact, made this same decision last Thursday by recalling back product that we shipped out, that was another 10,000 bucks. The decision today was the hardest one. GM and CJ both did not want to give suggestion and let me make the call since they both know I can overwrite their decision (URGH!!). I was put on the spot. It was a hard call. It was a freshly made out of the oven product. That was nothing wrong with it except it did not meet our quality standard. That dough was water down.

CJ came to me right away after I stepped into the office and told me that the cookies are too flat. I was even jokingly teasing him, "How many times do I have to tell you not to piss AJ off?" When I walked out to the plant with him, I was shocked. 80% of the products were being kicked off by the weigh detector for being overweight. That does not happen very often with this product. Everyone was busy trying to fix the products, some of the kicked out products were stacked way too high and some people dropped them all over the floor..it was a disaster! I can't imagine how much cookies we had fed to the bottom of our shoes today!

I walked to the production floor, looked at the cookies and checked the temperature of the cookies, it was fine except it tasted like flour and it spread too much and too flat! I went ahead and talked to MM and JS to try to figure out how was the dough before they went into the oven. It was too wet! GREAT! Another AJ's trick. With the flatter cookie, the workers can't do the usual visual estimation when they were filling up the cookies and that's why they were all overweight and being rejected! 7 pallets! Messing with 7 pallets worth of product which supposed to go out in less than an hour! 6 hours worth of production!

I waited till the production was over and looked at the yield and decided to not send the product. With feeding almost 400 lbs. on the floor, how could the yield be higher than our average yield? Does that make sense to you?

It was my first time ever, doing this kind of call. Having to make that kind of decision in 15 minutes, it was scary! Adrenaline rush? No. I was petrified, actually.

GM and CJ went to ask AJ whether he used the wrong shortening and all sort of questions without even accusing him or whatsoever. I went back to ask AJ to fix the recipe book with the new recipes I printed him a month ago and he gave me the excuses saying that he doesn't have time and the oven was running too fast and he doesn't want to do OT because GM wouldn't like it. Hmm..you can do 24 mixes in a PD day, but doing 10 mixes in a Cookie day is too fast for you to catch up? Are you serious about that? Are you really sticking to that excuses of yours? C'mon, give me a break! Your initial should be written the other way round, JA.

Managing all these people are like baby-sitting. CJ and I were joking about whether it is our mistake that we didn't see Baby-sitting in our job description? Or it wasn't even written there.

After knowing that I am throwing all those products away, AJ got mad (I think). No one ever done anything whenever he played with the formula and now, there is someone who is doing something about it. He doesn't like it when he doesn't have the power to play the God role.

Finally, AJ called after he got home to look for MM. The news is, AJ is doing his All-In bet again -- Resignation. This is the 3rd time he is doing it. His reason? He can't work with CJ (very mature for a 44 years old guy). He knows it well enough that RV and LV (the witch) love him and they would do anything to make him stay (at least for the past two times).

Well, I am waiting to see what's going to happen next. If RV and LV really make him stay in an unreasonable way (they make him the supervisor last time) or whatsoever, GM and CJ would quit. As for me, I will follow their footsteps as soon as my visa is valid.

I know, it is a very very FUBAR company but, I really learned and grew up a lot from working here. It is a very expedited maturity pill and I am glad I am taking them. Hahaha..

Finally..

Got a few things taken care of in a night. Finally, the procrastinator is moving her butt and get things done. Any good news from either one would be good enough. Pray for the best, pray for a change.

GM told me today if I were to marry someone out of my race, he will definitely attend my wedding..Hahaha.. His advice to me:
1. Be open-minded, color doesn't mean anything.
2. Find a man who would cater to me rather than dating a guy with a first name Jack and last name Ass.

We started a whole new no dating co-worker rules, no dating customer/supplier rules. Hehe..It is a don't ask, don't tell policy. Those married, one of them need to be fired or divorce. Hahaha..Everyone is acting silly at work today.

Note to Myself

RW came up to me and asked me why did I try to own up to the mistake that he made. I saw a true man standing in front of me. The more I deal with people, the more of the ugly side I see of people. Few of them can stand up when they made a mistakes. It had always been finger-pointing and backstabbing. I had only seen this good trait in GM, MM and RW.

Honesty, is always the way to go. I owned up to the mistake because I think I could have prevented it but I was too caught up with other things and let it slide until it was too late to fix it. If I could have made that 1 phone call, just 1 phone call, none of these would have happened and RW will not be in that much of a trouble. I hope they didn't deduct anything out of his paycheck. He is one of the most respectable guys among all those people I managed.

KH made a mistake today and it can actually turned into a huge disaster but she is lucky. I caught the mistake she made but ended up, she is mad at me. Refused to talk to me, refused to look at me, give me the attitude..sigh..Isn't it nice when your husband is the GM? You can just throw shit at people even when you are at fault? You can twist and turn all the truths and facts and blow things out of proportion and get people into trouble and still make yourself look like an innocent girl being bullied? Sigh..it is time to go. I am waiting for that day to just walked up and said, "I had have enough of your fxxking shit! I quit!"

Waiting for that day to come..patiently..At the meantime, I will apologize to her just to make peace with her. You do not want to have an enemy like her at workplace. Isn't it fun being a grown up? Sometimes I am impressed by how well I handled my temper and tolerated these kind of ridiculousness. Glad that I was quite a social person back in high school and college.

Well, for the good thing, I had a very fun Toastmaster meeting today. We were all cracking up and laughing throughout the whole meeting. They all encouraged me to participate in the Evaluator competition. Am I that good of a evaluator? Should I go to the Judges training? Or should I just dropped out since I know I have 80% chances of not being able to attend the district competition?

Sigh..Air ticket is hijacking! I am screwed! Urgh!! Should've bought that Power Ball Ticket. Haha..Might win, who knows, right? Hehehe..Since I sometimes got luck in gambling..

TLI Training

After chit chatting with a friend during the post-TLI training lunch, I found out what my problem is! I don't like maintaining things, I like creating and challenging things. That's why, I am so bored at work lately!! Hehehe..

Joining Toastmaster is one of the best thing I have ever done to myself since I started working. Even though this city is very boring and I pretty much don't have a life here, but people from the Toastmaster club are nice and very helpful. The most important thing is, they are very special. All of them have a story behind them. Some of them survived from 2 or 3 strokes in their life, some of them went through 3 divorces, some of them have a bad relationship with their sibling and ended up have to go to courthouse with her, some of them survived from heart attack and now living with a battery pack and electronic heart devices, some of them was married and found out that he is gay and being rejected by the society....and all those different kind of people. From them, I learned to look forward instead of looking back and regretting or second-guessing those decisions I made. Pretty much every conversations I have with them, I learned something out of it. It all depends on how much I am willing to learn, they are all willing to teach and share. They are not afraid to tell me when I am slacking off and point out to me that giving something not-so-good is better than giving nothing because no one is perfect and nothing is perfect.

Seeing them suffering and bearing with their deteriorating health and life, I know how important it is to be healthy and to start thinking about future and retirement. Hanging out with older people is not a bad thing, at least you know you can have a decent, intellectual conversation with them rather than talking nonsense or gossiping about people. Gossiping is important at work, but when it comes to personal life, other than people I cared for, I consider it a waste of time.

URGH!!!!!!

When problem arises, you try to solve it! Not throwing temper nor pushing the responsibility around nor pointing fingers at each other nor yelling nor swearing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I thought guys are less emotional at work but it seemed like I am wrong. I am so tired and sick of all these unprofessional emotional roller coaster!!

What is the freaking big deal? Mistakes happened and you know that it is going to cost money to fix it! Instead of complaining and being mad about it, just use that freaking energy to solve it! I felt like talking to a politician, they never get to the point! They just go round and round complaining about it but no one try to find the best solution to fix it! Talk, talk, talk, NO ACTION!

TIRED!! FRUSTRATING!!!

Single? Gay?

Ok, I got a bet with someone that I will lose 3.5 lbs. by the end of this month (the bet was set about a month ago, I think). I don't really need to lose weight but, I can really lose some tummy fat. Hehehe..So, I decided to start running again and see if it works.

The place I live is kind of weird. It is few blocks next to the old free way and the housing area around there wasn't a very pleasant one (most people here are red neck). I don't feel very comfortable running around there and I decided to try out this new fitness center that has a Sauna, a racquetball court and tanning room (sounds very good, isn't it?).

I went there last night and ended up paying $8.56 for just one day. I still remembered that ISU only cost $5 to use that huge facility and we considered that expensive! After giving some thoughts, I planned to become a member of the fitness center since it cost about $56 bucks each month and is unlimited access. I went there, talked to the lady and I found out that if you join as a couple, it will cost you only $65 bucks per month!! Am I being discriminated for being single??!

I came back to the office, talked to N about it, and we decided to call and see if we could join as "couple". Sigh...there are so many ways people can keep gay people from declaring themselves as couple! They defined couple as "married". As we all know, most states here does not recognize gay marriage, so, gay couple is not consider couple! Isn't that sad? For once, I decided to commit to a relationship, they forbid me from it!

Sigh..being discriminated against for being single/unmarried, and being discriminated again when I decided to commit to a relationship!! Hit me twice in a day!

There are so many benefits for being married in the US, maybe I should consider finding a husband now. You got tax cut, you got cheaper insurance, you got medical insurance from your spouse if you are not working, this and that..and blah blah blah..PLUS! Cheaper fitness center membership too!! ^o^

Ok, Vegas, here I come!

KH started the whole speech about how everyone likes me and how those guys' eyes light up when they see me..and blah blah blah..AGAIN! Sigh..all started because CJ said goodbye to me when he left but didn't acknowledge her.

Honestly, most people in the plant do respect me, the old ones and the young ones. Not much people would argue with me in most decisions I made except my GM, of course (and is usually on the R&D part of my job). That really caused a lot of trouble for me because KH got jealous about that all the time. Well, what can I do? I just have the curiosity to learn everything, like to be on top of everything and doesn't believe that anything is impossible unless you really tried hard and failed.
I was so happy that day when I accomplished some tasks that those maintenance guys kept telling me that it wont work. Let a Food Scientist to figure out a machine for you? Hehehehe..(ok, getting a little bit ego here) From now on, that 60 years old maintenance guy started to show his respect to me. It is quite hard for a stubborn old guy like him to have a female boss who is less than half his age. I completely understand his feeling and why he acted that way. Too bad that the only person who can overrule my QC decision is the CEO. I felt embarrassed when the GM said that to all the people in the plant cause I am really waaaayyyy too young to be given this kind of power.
When CJ first started, he was pretty skeptical about my credibility and was being kinda rude to me. After seeing how everyone come to me with questions and problems, how other people respected me, and knowing that I pretty much know how to operate all the machines back there and all the things going on back there, he backed off. Now, he came to me all the time with the things going on back in the plant. I also understand that he needs me to show him most of the things that MM doesn't want to show him.

Respect and trust, is something that you have to earn. I think I have accomplished what I wanted to accomplish in this company. It is time to move on. Updating my Resume tonight. Job-hopping? Hehehe...Sometimes I wished I don't have the visa problem to worry about. That way, I can learn more things and be more flexible with life.

People do ask me how does it feel to be powerful. The truth is, I don't feel anything. I am not into the power game. I have seen how power backfired on people who played the power game. Hehe..Maybe I can use my power to say, "With the power invest in me, I now pronounce you...My Kaki!"

Ok, time to go to bed..dreaming too much..hehehe..

Praying Hard..

Oh boy! Oh boy!! Babies are popping out all over the place now..My god..
Congrats to all my friends!! Will pray hard for you all for a safe pregnancy esp MK. I know how long you have been trying to have this baby.

自己一个人在实验室，锁上了门，自在地做着我爱做的实验。有时在想，如果人生是这么简单，那有多好呢！已想不起何时在上班的时候可以那么自在了。工作，其实不难，人际关系，是最难的一门课，需要去管理人，是件难上加难的事。人呐！真复杂。

最近这几天，上班都不怎么专心，太多东西，太多人，太多事，太多要求了。开始了其中一个计划，半途又得放下一切，去忙别的工；忙完了那份，又有另一份工作需要我参与。零零碎碎的事情，有时可以耗上几个小时。每天顾客都会发电邮，要求这，要求那，不回电邮的结果是电话不停地响，接电话的又不停地用扩音器招我回办公室接电话，烦得我都快要打人了。手上好多文件待我去处理、去完成，但，也有好多更急的文件需要在定时完成。有时会想，是不是每份工都是这样的呢？还是只是这份而已？

这份工，人事上的变迁，比风雨还要难预测。经理的妻子决定辞职了，大老板刚刚拨了电话来和经理谈，结果即将揭晓了。昨天下班的时候，我终于都问了经理，他会待多久，他说，他也不知道。我想我也差不多是该走的时候了。

也许真的该去加州走一趟，看看那间学校，有机会的话，还可以和那教授谈谈，也许，转折就在那转角。

Mosquitflies? Flyquitoes?

This is a special breed of flies. They fly towards light. Is it a cross-bred of flies and mosquitoes? I got tons of Mosquitflies in my apartment right now. Urgggghhhh! No wonder they are dying off by themselves. There are no food around here!! Go away!!
Can't use my vacuum right now. Don't really want to hear a bang on my door from my neighbors. Driving me nuts..these tiny creatures.

Muahahaha..

Came back to a fly infested apartment. Freaking me out! It is the type with shinny body and makes tons of noise when flying around. That's the type I was afraid of when I was little. I can kill all those tiny black flies easily but I am just scared of those shinny ones cause they are usually bigger in size.

30 something flies are in my apartment!! Half dead, half alive. Look around to find the root to the problem but there are none! I don't have any food laying around or anything. Wonder why and how they decide that my apartment is their house when they don't even pay rent! Sigh..creatures are so unreliable nowadays..

Took a bunch of old newspaper, started smacking around. Finally, I decided to use some more civilized way to kill them. I took out the vacuum at 10.30pm and attacked all of them! Suck the life out of them! MUAHAHAHAHA...

Maybe I should learn from EVIL 1 by taping the dead body of those flies on the walls hoping that other flies would understand and stay away from my apartment when they refused to pay rent. Hmm...Or maybe I should just take their SSN and sue them..Hehehe..

I am EVIL.

Very Random

Someone who is good at what he/she is doing, doesn't mean he/she is a good person.
Does all the management position people has to be a jackass? Or they just lack of social skills?

I never find making fun of people with disability funny at all.

Started to understand why working experience is so important. It is an eye-opener and it is an instant growing up pill. Very grateful for the experience.

Someone once told me, "It is better to be a big fish in a small pond than a small fish in a big pond". I used to agree with that but now, I don't know if that is very applicable to all case. It depends on what you are looking for in life. Being an important person in a company with not-so-good life quality? Or being an semi-important person with a better quality of life?

Going to meet a new customer tomorrow. Hopefully we can get her on board. A successful, working woman. Heard that another customer is scheduled to come in Aug. Life is getting interesting now.

Asking my GM about unpaid leave today. He kept emphasized that I wont get paid. I guess he hasn't realized that money isn't everything. Wonder what he would say if I ask for 1 month unpaid leave..Hahaha..tell him I am in labor..Hehehe..

Chatting with GM after work about one of our customers. We were guessing if he is straight (40ish, single, quite good looking, metrosexual). Hmm..Most people can accept gay people but when comes to their family members, they always have a hard time swallowing it. Sigh..

It is really time for bed now. Been a long day. Failed R&D projects bring me down badly. Time to learn to accept that not everything is going to turn out as I wished and there are successes and failures in life. There are also mistakes in life. The most important thing is to admit to it when it happened and take the initiative to fix it.

It will be an interesting day with CJ on board in our weekly meeting. Glad that part of the responsibilities are off my shoulder now but it hasn't go the way as I wished. Hopefully, he will understand and take over all his responsibilities soon and I can focus on things that are more important. Tons of work are being left behind and it is time to catch up before the busy season catch up on me.

Plan to challenge myself through the next 2 inspections. Be done by: May, 2008.

原來，消極是那麼恐怖和可怕的東西。
人要自救，才能救人。

IFT

REALLY REALLY REALLY TRULY SERIOUSLY wanted to go to IFT this year!!!!! I want to go!!! I want to go!!! I want to go!!! What a lousy company who didn't attend IFT. Can I go by my own? URGH!! I want to go!!! Most of the suppliers that I knew are going there! Some of our customer are going too!! All those companies are asking me or sending me invitations to visit them or even visit their facility if I go to IFT this year!! I wanted to meet those flavor chemist, I wanted to see a different processing facility, I wanted to meet new people, I wanted to build connection with the industry, I wanted to attend the seminars and learn about the new trend in the industry, I wanted to find a new job!!!! I miss seeing my professors and having breakfast with all the ISU Alums there. I miss talking to strangers and learn about their new products.

I want to go......Depressed... >_<

Weapon of Mass Destruction

Found a new WMD --> 3000 lbs liquid invert sugar. Stupidity is the way to a huge mess.
3000 lbs. of liquid invert sugar placed on a weak pallet spells TROUBLE.
Pallet broke, stick right through the invert tote and...we got a pool of liquid invert sugar! SWEEEEET, ain't it? Turned half of the warehouse into liquid invert skating rink. The funny thing is, GM was so mad and he wanted to walk over there and check out what the problem was, his slippery leather shoes are the best skate ever! Fell right on the sugar! Sweet butt. Luckily he didn't hurt himself.
Everything on that part of the warehouse was soaked with liquid invert. Some of them are just impossible to clean. Such a mess! Monday is already a bad day for most people, we have to add this on? Some of them even have to work overtime to help clean up that mess. Now we have to have another massive clean up since the invert sugar was tracked all over the plant under our shoes. I am quite...speechless...
How come people doesn't know how to act on the spot? When you see a broken invert tote started dripping out, the first thing you do is to take it outside, right? No! They set it on the warehouse floor and watch it flow!! If that's not enough, none of them intended to come and get any of us to ask us what to do with it! I was just right next door!
By the time I saw that, there were already 2500 lbs invert on the floor. I was speechless.

It's been a looong day. Suffering from insomnia (now I understand why they call it red-eye flight and how panda eyes looked like), worked non-stop for 9 hours and have to try to figure this new guy out..I am worn out. Holding the responsibility of being the Toastmaster, I can't bail out on the meeting. What makes it even better is that, I ran into RV & LV after the post-toasties. I am having a damn good day!

Some people just don't understand and don't know how and when to be serious. It is not what you want nor what you like, it is what the CUSTOMER wants, ok? Being in the industry for so long and you still don't understand this point. Show me your talent and what you can really do, not a bunch of criticisms and no action. Everybody deserves a second chance and I need a FREAKING VACATION!!!

Some people like to put others down to make themselves look smart and good. You are a Lutheran? You go to church? What a joke! Shame on you! Stop putting god's name in front of you when you can't follow god's way.

I am very very grouchy and grumpy today. Lack of sleep, I supposed.

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Why telling me which way to go and which path to choose when you are not there while I needed you the most?

最近，上班上得好累，不是因為不夠睡而累，而是沒有假期沒有休息地做而累垮了。終於都明白假期的重要性。
讀書和做研究生的時候，累了，還可以好好安排時間放自己幾天假，做些令自己開心的事，或出去溜躂幾個小時。上班後，卻失去了這種自由。累了，不能說要出去透透氣就可以出去透透氣，問題想不通，也不能說出去轉個圈清一清思緒回來再解決；下了班，還得為明天的事而煩，或為生活上的瑣事而忙，想要好好休息都好像好難。經理蠻信任我，很多時候都是我自己在按排我的工作表，可是一個人身兼那麼多個職位，再怎樣按排，都很難抽空透口氣。
有時候，真的希望有個室友，至少生活上的問題可以分擔一些。

最近這幾天，下班後，吃飽了就倒頭大睡，睡了幾個小時才起來，還是覺得很累。這樣墮落下去是不行了。每天三杯咖啡還是沒效。

我需要假期。
好想回去讀書。反正這份工作似乎不太有挑戰性了，覺得悶悶地。。。

明天可以不回去 Ames 嗎？懶得應酬。。

>_<

KH今天很難過。巫婆和巫公（LV和RV）今天到了，她覺得他們對她的態度很冷漠，搞得她考慮辭職。很想嘗試開解她，卻覺得好難。發了封電郵給她，跟她說了Nat常告訴我的，"You are a great person, do not let anyone tell you nor make you feel otherwise."希望她可以看得開一點。
知道巫婆很討厭我，可我就不在乎，不懂是好事還是壞事？Romeo要我學會怎麼討好巫婆，我卻覺得這種做法很要不得。固執？嗯。。

有個人最近常告訴我，我必須學會做家務、煮飯，等等之類的事，因為那是身為妻子的責任。甚麼世紀了？想要我走入這類十八世紀的婚姻？妄想！
我們總是想著別人能帶給我們甚麼，卻不懂得想想，我們能帶給別人甚麼。人，都是自私的。

突然很想找個人說說話。是時候回電話了。好想妳，好想見見妳，也許是時候飛了。先回了妳的電話再說吧。

最近生活上的事，都搞得一塌糊塗，煮東西煮到睡著了，鍋都焦了；洗衣洗到整籃衣都變粉紅色了，心不在焉吶！

累。累。累。

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URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!

Praying..

RV and LV are coming tomorrow and leaving on next Tuesday. It will be a looong week. KH (GM's wife) and I are betting on who will get yell by LV. The one survived will have to treat the other an Applebee's lunch.
It is going to be a very intensive tongue holding week. Bite it! Bite it! That way, you will survive.
Sometimes really wished for the freedom to walk out instead of putting up with those ridiculousnessessss. Trapped. Nightmare. Insomnia. Self-torturing..Idiot..
New PlM is starting next Monday. Looking forward to more drama, live show and backstabbing. It is going to be G.R.E.A.T. Planned to stick around and see what's going to happen next. It will be some interesting experience.

R&D turned out badly today (according to my own standard). Wonder why. Probably due to my carelessness. Didn't really watch what AJ was doing. PrM is right. I should be more careful with that two-faced-egocentric-chronic-complainer. Redoing it again Wednesday. Hopefully RV would leave me alone this time.

I am "SO" looking forward to the next 5 working days. Please, do not ask me out for dinner. 9.5 hours a day is more than enough. Not asking for much, just asking for a peaceful next 5 days. Hopefully, Romeo is coming too.

Received a package today. Brought up some memory. Can't believe it has been that long. Glad that it is over.
Finally.
Thanks, M.

I found LOVE

~Best picture taken ever~

by Keny Ooi

It is so hard. We tried to take it again, the sun is no longer at the same position. No photoshop or whatsoever was done on this picture. I did resize it. That love shape is so...PERFECT!

Oh, by the way, that's my current girlfriend. ^-*
Let the sun show my love for her to the whole world...Wo Hoo...

Salute!!

Dedicated to CTF! My salute to you..
Hehehe..Don't kill me please..

Just Thoughts..

Consecutively, 3 weeks. Didn't make it this week. Felt a little bit disappointed. Not sure what does that really mean to me and how do I look at it. Treat it as a place for self-reflection? Treat it as a time for reminding myself of who I am? Don't mean to stir up anything but I think it will.

Accepting someone, including their good and bad. Just realized that it does apply to friend too. Some people have both extremely lovable characteristic and extremely obnoxious attitude. Used to think that avoiding them is the best way to solve the problem. Now, I am learning to deal with them and learn to accept their good and bad. Accepting and ignoring their bad side is the way to find peace?

Someone once told me, "There are two sides on a sheet of paper, we have to learn to look at both sides instead of one."

Addicted to Overflow's "Cry On My Shoulder"

July 4th!!! Hilary!!!!

Guess what? I met Bill and Hilary Clinton today and I shook their hands today. If that's not enough, I had a picture taken with Hilary!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Try to top that!!
That feeling was...indescribable!! I was literally jumping around after that. How many chances do you get to be able to see the President, shook his hand and even took picture with an ex-First Lady/Possible-Future-First-Female-President? On top of that, I am a foreigner!!! This is one of the best July 4th I ever had.

I called EH early before the parade started and told her I am going to see Clinton today. She wasn't very impress. I called her after the parade and told her about the picture...WAHAHAHAHAHA... Jealous?? Lalalala....Told you to come..That's how close I was with Bill Clinton. I am regret now that I was too chicken to ask Bill for a picture. Hehe..My friend got the newspaper signed by Bill though. He had to sign it with his own pen. He cannot sign it with the pen we handed him because they afraid we might put some bomb in the pen. One thing weird when I met Bill Clinton was that he stared at me for quite some time. I guessed seeing a foreigner in a small town like this is not very common?? Hmm..

The price to pay for the pic? I got very tanned...

I went to the Carnival after that. They have many different rides and band playing in the band shell. They even have funnel cake and different kind of food. At that point, I really miss KY!!! I was planning to wait till 4.30pm for the dance performance from the dancing school in this town but I was way too tired after standing under the sun for so long. I ended up went back home and took a looong nap. Haha..

The Carnival will still be here till Friday night. I probably will stop back again to get the Funnel cake. I sneaked a bite off my friend's and it was better than the one I had in CR during the BBQ festival. Anyone joining me??

I watched 2 fireworks and both of them were great. The one that I watched last night, is on my one of the best firework list. It was over a high school football field, so, they have several firework set on the field that shoot up in addition to the one that they shot up into the air. The whole picture was really great. They even have a stand up firework that shoot the flag of America at the end. I didn't take any pictures because I am staying too close to the firework and wasn't able to capture the whole picture nicely. Before the firework, they have some performance. One of the performer had performed in Oprah's show before.

The second one, I watched it over the lake tonight. They set 3 different stations on the lake to shoot up the firework. It was shot from 3 different directions and at 3 different timing. I was sitting on the grass field. The view should be better if I sat at the dock where they park the boat. I saw the reflection of the firework on the lake and it was great. Too bad I wasn't sitting closer to the lake.

Having people who cared about me, is what make the whole July 4th the best thing ever. Thanks, everyone.