Sigh..

Even my GM is going crazy with those girls now. I am speechless...
Added a little color to my almost-fall-asleep work day.

^-^

Called the credit card company that day to activate one of my credit cards. I have to talk to the operator because for some reason, the automated system doesn't work well.

The operator activated my credit card and then he asked,
"Ma'am, what is the APR you are paying now for your other credit card?"

I don't remember the APR for my other credit card, and this question just popped out from no where, so, I answered,
"It's none of your concern, isn't it?"

Hehehe...He was shocked and paused for a few seconds there before he could answer my question. Well, he leave me alone after that. Hahaha..I am MEAN.

Cast Away

"I know what I have to do now. I have to keep breathing because the sun will rise tomorrow. Who knows what the tide will bring you."
"Don't turn your back on time."
Cast Away, 2000.

Finally, finished watching Cast Away. Very glad that I got some "improvement" on my Movie To Watch list. More to go. Hehe..Shame on me.

Cast Away is such a great movie. Can't believe that I haven't watch it all these time. Tom Hanks, my favorite. Most of his movies are very nice, especially Forrest Gump.

Pirates 3!!!
Shrek 3!!!
So tempted to break my promise..hehehe...

More packing..more packing. As soon as I figure out how to move my mattress, I can start crossing off more things on my Self Achievement list. Fold the mattress into half? Will that work? Hmm...Any suggestion?

曲奇人生哲學

發現到做人的道理，其實就和研究曲奇一樣。每個人都有不同的口味和喜好，可能這個人喜歡的，另一個人又未必會喜歡。最主要的，是做到最好，最符合大眾的口味，只要大多數的人都喜歡，那就很不錯了。

做人也是一樣，你不可能令所有人都喜歡你，你唯一能做的，就是做回自己，做最好的自己，成為一個能令大眾都喜歡的自己。如果大眾都對你沒有好感，那你就必須自我檢討，看看哪裡不對，也聽聽大眾的意見，然後改一改，這樣，不但能令自己成為更好的人，也會成為受人歡迎的人。

自我反省。

The NEW Look

Nice, huh? Hehehe..My horse manure carpet cleaning outfit. First time, ever, I am cleaning horse manure. It was actually quite interesting. Took us more than an hour to get everything clean up.

It was a very relaxing Sunday. Slept in the hammock, drinking (not beer) and eating the whole time. Felt like home.

Went to Toastmaster International District Conference last weekend. It was a great event. They invited Darren LaCroix, the 2001 International Champion as the guest speaker and he was AMAZING! He was very humorous but yet, he was still able to get his message across to the audience. It was very impressive that someone who can master this skill so perfectly. I am really glad that I attended the meeting. He was worth the drive and price.

The etiquette speech was a great one too. 7 courses meal? No way! Should try it once. Hehehe..

The banquet following the competition was great. The speech by the newly-elected District Governor was quite..long especially when I am in a hurry of getting out of there, but overall, I had a great time despite the tiredness and sleepiness. It was fun to see how different gender should be treated differently in a formal banquet like that. I haven't seen male pulling chair for female that often but during the conference, I saw some people did that and I realized that it was actually quite necessary. It makes it so much easier on the female especially when they need to stand up all the time and yet, still remain their elegantness (if this is a word). Now I understand why there is such a tradition.

Lesson Learned:

"Don't be afraid of falling, as long as you are falling forward, it is still a step ahead."

From the lesson learned, shall I encourage him to go ahead? Or shall I tell him to take one step at a time? Taking risk, or not taking risk?

Desperation for money can really change a person. Sour, bitterness, jealousy, all the negative attitude. Self content and fulfillment is very important. Can't say much, but wish you all the best.

Anaheim..Yes? No?

Errr...Sending me to Anaheim IDDBA show?
Errr...Working with LV for a few days?
Seriously?!
Can I say No?!

Sigh..You guys never asked anyway.
Sigh..I don't have a choice anyway.
Sigh..It was never my decision anyway.

Well, let's see where life takes me.

Nap Nap Nap!! I need a nap!
Nighty night..

Purse Party

Went to a Purse Party last night with coworkers and friends. It was quite an experience actually.

First, I thought it was some sort of high-end purse selling party or at least, some very good quality purse. After I got there, I was pretty shock at the purses you they are selling there! I think, even those purses you bought from China Night Market or Thailand might have a much more better quality than those!

I flipped through the purses, and found out that they are all made in China. Some of them do have those Guess-sorta-logo, LV-sorta-logo or YSL-sorta-logo, Coach-sorta-logo, Chanel-sorta-logo or Prada-kinda-logo on them. At that point, I felt like the whole thing is a SCAM!! You can easily import those purses from China and start up a whole purse party yourself! Wow..what a great idea! Maybe I should do that! Those purses you found in China, can have a better quality and can look so much more alike than those they are selling there!

Ended up, picky people like me, didn't get anything (thank god!). I still prefer to stick to my own principle.

Well, this might be the last Purse Party for me. I had a wonderful time hanging out with those girls though. A drink after a crazy workday is what we need now anyways.

Another Bad Day..

Big Mistakes:
1. When you did something wrong, admit to it! Don't try to find excuses, it will just make you look even worse.
2. When you can't handle it, ask for help! Don't take it all on your shoulder, it will just ended up as a disaster.
3. Anyone can criticize and yell at you but only true man will take the initiative to get down and help you. (FR, May 16, 2007)

Thanks, Romeo, for sticking by, again.
To Louis Vuitton, I am not your child, I am not your puppet, I am not your toy, and I am not your pet!! Stop screaming at me!! Stupid blonde..I don't have the luxury life like yours, ok? I don't even have a break to eat my lunch not to mention going for manicure, pedicure, tanning, shopping, gossiping! Sigh..Sitting there all day ebaying, asked you to sub the receptionist job for an hour and you start complaining about the receptionist!

Total Eclipse of The Heart

Total Eclipse of The Heart，心之全蝕。

熱情，會隨著時間而淡化嗎？

今天，差點又要崩潰了。逼著、逼著，感覺到好像自己很無能。K 說，別讓工作令我們的自信下跌。嗯。。是的。手上那麼多工等待我去完成，感到好像虛度了人生。
失敗了，終結。怎麼辦？我也不知道。心好煩，好想一個人靜一靜。上頭的壓力，逼得喘不過氣了。

也許，多年後，回看這篇文章，會感到只是一件小事而已。

Happiness..Dedicated to You..

It is the art of living, the purpose of our existence. Happiness is the true index of quality of life.

Without happiness, life is dry and meaningless.

With happiness, life immediately becomes fulfilling and wonderful.

Happiness is an infectious feeling that immediately lifts the sagging spirits of people.

Happy people keep themselves happy because they know the little ways to appreciate themselves and to see the humour and magic in each moment.

Saw this quote on a friend's website. Agree with the last sentence strongly.
I was miserable the first few months after I moved here. It gets worse when CL left. I was so angry about life because of what I was doing and the lack of choices I had. Complaining to my sister becomes a routine thing (thanks to her patience). Till once, she told me, "You choose what you feel, no one can make you feel what you feel." That was the wake up call! I started to realize that, I can choose to be miserable in this situation, or I can choose to be happy and content, and I chose the later.

I don't know how to teach you to make yourself happy. You have to find it your own. Try to find little things that you can do to make yourself happy. That's all I can tell you.

Don't be scare, don't be afraid and don't feel bad because you think you are lost. I went to the Professional Toastmaster meeting again yesterday. While I was sitting through the meeting, I started realized that all these 30-70s people, they were lost, for a very very loooong time. They never knew what they really want in their life. They were doing jobs that they don't really enjoy. After all these years, they started realized that they want to be a speaker! Some wants to be a spiritual speaker, some wants to be a life lesson speaker, some wants to be a trainer, some wants to be a product selling speaker. One of them had his job switched from a Marine to an Image and Self Esteem Counselor, the other was a State/City Lawyer and now she is a salesperson for Mary Kay. It really makes you wonder, how many of us are actually doing something that we truly enjoyed? How long does it take for a person to eventually find his/her true calling? Is it in God's way? Or is it in life itself?

Ed said, "Take charge of your life, don't let circumstances get in your way. You cannot control circumstances, but you can control your attitude."

I hope that you find something that makes you happy eventually. As for now, just take a step at a time, and try your best to be happy. Life goes on and it is a shame if we don't live it to the fullest.

Hmm..

After dodging Js's calls for so many times, I called him back. Yeah, I am THAT lazy. He sounded like he is very set on going for a PhD., yet, I still don't really believe him. His maturity level, maybe? Age really doesn't matter in this case. Someone can be 40 years old but still have a maturity level of a teenager. I think that is a miracle, a bad one. 3 years commitment? That's quite long. I am definitely not taking that route.

PhD? In Food Science? Hmm..nope! Js was trying to convince me to go back to school with him, but, too bad..my answer is NO.

Just realized that I don't really like my major as much. I aced at my major courses but it is just not something I really have passion in. Now only I realized that I prefer management more. I enjoyed managing people. I enjoy dealing with people. It is frustrating but it is very rewarding when you succeed. I find it more challenging than my R&D work or Quality Control work. Wish I could get a MBA...Too late now?

To succeed, you really have to go the distance..

Work..Business..Politic..Life..

Sigh...
Ashamed of myself for letting him down. I am really bad at saying "No" or rejecting people. I don't know how to tell the supplier when we decided not to use their product. I felt bad. They sent me samples, fulfilled my requests, but ended up, their price is higher and we have to go with another supplier. He said, this is business! Yeah, this is business, and I know it is best for me to learn that.

I need to learn to say No.
I need to learn to negotiate price.
I need to learn to use my power to make things happen.

There are so many things that I need to learn in order to become a successful person like them.

I did one thing that I am proud of today. I took my stand and fight for what's right. I told the supplier that we are not going to pay for the samples he sent. It was a sample, he didn't tell me that we have to pay for that. It wasn't fair to us, especially me, who is the one that deal with him all these time. I even offered to ship it back to him if he wants. Thanks to Him who forced me to do that. It was hard, but wasn't that bad.

I think as soon as I mastered all these skills, I can really do business. Business is Business, after all.

1 baby step at a time. Thanks for the opportunity. =)
His wife was going to start the whole, "What do you have that I don't have? Why do everyone like you?" speech again today. Sigh...When will she ever let go of that grudge? I have done nothing wrong after all! In fact, I have done nothing!! I hope they hire someone into the office soon. Someone cute and young. That way, the heat will not be on me anymore.

Jealousy and hatred is a can of poison. Watch Spiderman 3, you will understand.

Life..

嗯。。突然很想喝杯 Kahlua 加奶。

Toastmaster Professional Achievement Club meeting?
Or
Cedar Rapids?
Juggling..Juggling...

Toastmaster District Conference? To be or not to be? To go or not to go?

This weekend settled. Next weekend settled.
Memorial Weekend -- California? Wisconsin Water Park? Chicago?

When am I going to have time to move my apartment??!! Thinking of getting a used RAV 4, then I can do it all by myself. Nice, huh? I want a black one!

Yesterday, it was my 6 months anniversary!! I survived!! Commitment-phobia like me, SURVIVED!!
Did some mistakes these few days. Kinda living in the fear that it might come back and bite me. Well, worse come to worse, I am going home.

Hold your tongue! Hold your tongue!

1 More Down, 1 More To Go

M is leaving on Tuesday.

KY didn't get the visa. Darn it!!! The one that I cared for, didn't get it. That one that I didn't, got it. What the heck? Are you kidding me?!

1 more down, 1 more to go. I am getting outta here!! Nuts....

无聊的阔太

办公室里，有人对着你大呼小叫地说：“到底你有些什么是我没有的，为什么每个人都喜欢你？！”，你会有什么感受？

Wedding/Reunion/Weekend Retreat

I don't want to come back!!!
It was quite depressing to come back, actually. Hanging out with my sis, Jc, KT sort of bring me back to the old times when things are not so complicated and happy.
It was a very very short trip but it was a happy and fun one.
Hmm..don't ask me why, but I didn't bring my camera.
Waiting for Jc to give me the pictures now. Hehehe..

Congrats again, Y and Y!
Thanks again, Jc and KT. You both are great hosts.