發現到要學會把我的情緒，或者，也許，整個人抽離，才能冷靜地思考應對的政策。
人的驕傲、自負、自大，充滿了整個會議室，令我還以為今天參加會議的人太多了，感覺到會議室那麼地擁擠、逼迫，算算人數都一樣，原來是人的罪性填滿了所有可以呼吸的空間。
一走出會議室，就好想破口大罵，但，還是忍了下來。主啊！祢可要給我智慧呀！給我寬容的心，給我繼續為正義而發言的勇氣。看著人人為己的自私自利的行為，真的好難讓人不對這社會感到灰心啊。踐踏別人，就為了提升自己，唉。。。
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Tuesday, August 30
Sunday, September 19
Pressure
Pressure cooker is the appropriate way to describe my current work condition. Office politics, project politics, coworker's pressure, project pressure etc etc...
I started to realize and willing to admit that I am who I was. I have not changed much. One of the reasons I changed my major from PR to a scientist was human interaction. I do not like the envious, fake-friend, backstabbing, gossiping, walking on the egg shell kinda relationship. My office mates are...like that. I never liked to associate with coworkers, especially coworkers from similar department. Too much competition and it does get ugly. I still like my own little world, yes, my own little world with me & my job [.] If you could give me an office by myself, things would've been different. I am not sure if it is going to be better but I would have more control over it compare to now. Sigh...I just wanted my office...
Sigh...for quite a while, work had not cast a shadow over my weekend or weeknights. Now, it kinda started to seep into it again. The thought of going back for R.D. kept lingering in my head. This job has the potential to become very successful but I am not enjoying it. I like my freedom and friendly interaction. I like being able to enjoy my weekend & weeknights without thinking about the next day/Monday and dread over it. Do I want to go back for a R.D., and start everything from scratch? Or do I want to stick around this job and hope for the best to come?
O Lord! May You show me Your way and guide me. May it bring glory to Your Name and Your Kingdom!
Update @ 1:56a.m.
1 Corinthians 10:13 - Guess I will stick around for a while... =)
I started to realize and willing to admit that I am who I was. I have not changed much. One of the reasons I changed my major from PR to a scientist was human interaction. I do not like the envious, fake-friend, backstabbing, gossiping, walking on the egg shell kinda relationship. My office mates are...like that. I never liked to associate with coworkers, especially coworkers from similar department. Too much competition and it does get ugly. I still like my own little world, yes, my own little world with me & my job [.] If you could give me an office by myself, things would've been different. I am not sure if it is going to be better but I would have more control over it compare to now. Sigh...I just wanted my office...
Sigh...for quite a while, work had not cast a shadow over my weekend or weeknights. Now, it kinda started to seep into it again. The thought of going back for R.D. kept lingering in my head. This job has the potential to become very successful but I am not enjoying it. I like my freedom and friendly interaction. I like being able to enjoy my weekend & weeknights without thinking about the next day/Monday and dread over it. Do I want to go back for a R.D., and start everything from scratch? Or do I want to stick around this job and hope for the best to come?
O Lord! May You show me Your way and guide me. May it bring glory to Your Name and Your Kingdom!
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Update @ 1:56a.m.
1 Corinthians 10:13 - Guess I will stick around for a while... =)
Wednesday, August 4
Life Lesson
XY once asked in our Friday night Bible study, "What is the question you would ask God when you see Him one day?" My answer was, "What's next?"
Although I believe that we will be in heaven when we die and there will be no reincarnation, I am still hesitated about going to heaven. I felt like there is nothing to look forward to after being in heaven. I felt like this life is so much better with challenges and uncertainties…until lately.
Injustice is a common thing in this world. There is nothing much we can do about it. I was really unhappy about the whole situation but the only thing I could do is, suck it up and keep going.
For the past few months, I have been trying very hard to stand up strong despite everything else that seems to be going the wrong way around me. Sometimes I felt so tired to have to carry all these things with me. Sometimes, it felt so heavy that I just wanted to run.
This morning, on my way to work while listening to BBN, I realized that I have been too arrogant to admit that my life is not perfect or as happy as I wanted it to be or if there is even a complete happiness on this earth. There are too many uncertainties and unfortunate events. Finally, I am willing to humble down myself and admit that – No, I do not want to relive this life; No, I do not want to be reincarnated; No, I am okay to just finish this life and go to Heaven for good.
Being screamed at by the same guy twice this week. Ha! Life as a white collar worker. Glad that it wasn't my fault.
Life is still pretty okay despite some of these unfortunate events. Glad that the week is almost over. Another big day tomorrow.
Although I believe that we will be in heaven when we die and there will be no reincarnation, I am still hesitated about going to heaven. I felt like there is nothing to look forward to after being in heaven. I felt like this life is so much better with challenges and uncertainties…until lately.
Injustice is a common thing in this world. There is nothing much we can do about it. I was really unhappy about the whole situation but the only thing I could do is, suck it up and keep going.
For the past few months, I have been trying very hard to stand up strong despite everything else that seems to be going the wrong way around me. Sometimes I felt so tired to have to carry all these things with me. Sometimes, it felt so heavy that I just wanted to run.
This morning, on my way to work while listening to BBN, I realized that I have been too arrogant to admit that my life is not perfect or as happy as I wanted it to be or if there is even a complete happiness on this earth. There are too many uncertainties and unfortunate events. Finally, I am willing to humble down myself and admit that – No, I do not want to relive this life; No, I do not want to be reincarnated; No, I am okay to just finish this life and go to Heaven for good.
Being screamed at by the same guy twice this week. Ha! Life as a white collar worker. Glad that it wasn't my fault.
Life is still pretty okay despite some of these unfortunate events. Glad that the week is almost over. Another big day tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 27
蝸牛還是烏龜
老板終於都問了我那個問題。啊！！！我不知道啦。
要不要當領袖？還是要選擇別的方向？覺得這間公司怎麼樣呢？以後想當什麼樣的職位呀？+_+
老板說，我很有潛能，問題在於我什麼時候願意從我的軀殼走出來而已。我是蝸牛還是烏龜呀？那，龜兔賽跑我會贏嗎？離題了。。=_="
哎唷！好難啦！！那些人都是我老爸老媽的年齡，要我領導他們唷？這不叫虐待的話，那什麼才是虐待呀？好累。
膽子，膽子，你去了哪兒呀？噢，聽說你被魷魚嚇跑了。什麼？什麼？啊。。只有綠卡可以把你找回來。
累死了。。睡覺去。。
要不要當領袖？還是要選擇別的方向？覺得這間公司怎麼樣呢？以後想當什麼樣的職位呀？+_+
老板說，我很有潛能，問題在於我什麼時候願意從我的軀殼走出來而已。我是蝸牛還是烏龜呀？那，龜兔賽跑我會贏嗎？離題了。。=_="
哎唷！好難啦！！那些人都是我老爸老媽的年齡，要我領導他們唷？這不叫虐待的話，那什麼才是虐待呀？好累。
膽子，膽子，你去了哪兒呀？噢，聽說你被魷魚嚇跑了。什麼？什麼？啊。。只有綠卡可以把你找回來。
累死了。。睡覺去。。
Wednesday, September 30
垃圾政治
呼。。這星期終於嚐盡了大公司的。。垃圾政治。
去開了一個超隆重的會議。三個小時的壓力後，老板說，“別擔心，所有的提議我們之前已經研究過了，都不太行得通，別浪費你的時間在這些提議上。”我眼睜得大大地，瞪著老板問，“那，我們明年再來開同樣的會議嗎？”老板見到我的反應，大笑了後說，“歡迎來到大公司”。
气結。。難怪本小姐的辦事效率那麼低啦。。每個人都是說說說，不怎麼行動，超。。悶。。的。。
老板嘛，就說嘛，要我嘛，好好地“處理”我的屬下。快要把我逼瘋了！好多好多的階段，不同的步驟，每一步都要三至六十天，好變態！還每個星期要和他開會，好折磨也。算一算，如果真的那麼不幸，要炒的話，會在聖誕節也！怎麼下得了手呀？炒，我心里都已經很難過了，也下不了手了，更別說在那個季節下手了。煩死了。為何要我來收拾別人的爛攤子呀？唉，怎辦？在反覆思量，該不該和老板求情，給他最後一次机會呢？但，他真的無論如何，都達不到我們的要求也。。
這幾天都在忙著處理他的事情，搞得自己心情也鬱悶鬱悶地。。還有多久才結束呀？心情悶悶地。。拿走別人的收入，好慘忍呀！下不了手！下不了手！難怪人家說，女人心太軟，成不了大業。算了，反正我也沒有成大業的夢想，讓我開開心心地做凡人就好了！
啊！煩死了！周末快來！
去開了一個超隆重的會議。三個小時的壓力後，老板說，“別擔心，所有的提議我們之前已經研究過了，都不太行得通，別浪費你的時間在這些提議上。”我眼睜得大大地，瞪著老板問，“那，我們明年再來開同樣的會議嗎？”老板見到我的反應，大笑了後說，“歡迎來到大公司”。
气結。。難怪本小姐的辦事效率那麼低啦。。每個人都是說說說，不怎麼行動，超。。悶。。的。。
老板嘛，就說嘛，要我嘛，好好地“處理”我的屬下。快要把我逼瘋了！好多好多的階段，不同的步驟，每一步都要三至六十天，好變態！還每個星期要和他開會，好折磨也。算一算，如果真的那麼不幸，要炒的話，會在聖誕節也！怎麼下得了手呀？炒，我心里都已經很難過了，也下不了手了，更別說在那個季節下手了。煩死了。為何要我來收拾別人的爛攤子呀？唉，怎辦？在反覆思量，該不該和老板求情，給他最後一次机會呢？但，他真的無論如何，都達不到我們的要求也。。
這幾天都在忙著處理他的事情，搞得自己心情也鬱悶鬱悶地。。還有多久才結束呀？心情悶悶地。。拿走別人的收入，好慘忍呀！下不了手！下不了手！難怪人家說，女人心太軟，成不了大業。算了，反正我也沒有成大業的夢想，讓我開開心心地做凡人就好了！
啊！煩死了！周末快來！
Monday, August 3
搬，搬，搬？
突然收到了一位好久沒聯絡的朋友發來的電郵。嗯，他在阿馬哈有份工，還是一份很好的工，問我有沒有興趣。
要搬嗎？要搬嗎？
要換嗎？要換嗎？
要走嗎？要走嗎？
工資肯定比現在高，生活費也較便宜。那行也是很好的一個行業。。
這份工還有七個月才能得回自由，或必須賠他們搬家的費用。。
嘿嘿。。嘿嘿。。嘿嘿。。
要搬嗎？要搬嗎？
要換嗎？要換嗎？
要走嗎？要走嗎？
工資肯定比現在高，生活費也較便宜。那行也是很好的一個行業。。
這份工還有七個月才能得回自由，或必須賠他們搬家的費用。。
嘿嘿。。嘿嘿。。嘿嘿。。
Saturday, August 1
上班族的小小感慨
上班是，当你知道有些事真的很白痴也很多余，但对方/顾客是真的没有办法或太骄傲而不愿去明白，你。。没有选择，只能去做。（虽然可以在心里偷偷暗骂大笨蛋）
管理人是，当你知道有些事真的很简单，你以为不用解释太多下属必然会明白，但，出来的成果，你会很后悔你为何不花多点时间解释和要求对方重复一遍你要他做的事。
打工是，忍一时，风平浪静；退一步，海阔天空。
管理计划是，凡事不可以以为，把所有人和事，当三岁的小孩来对待。
还好，还好。。我的个性很看得开和乐观。。
还好，还好。。老板了解我。。嘿嘿。。
还好，还好。。趁机锻炼我的耐性。。
还好，还好。。老板愿意栽培我。。
还好，还好。。我有份工。。
还好，还好。。工作很忙。。
还好，还好。。学了好多。。
还好，还好。。我很好。
管理人是，当你知道有些事真的很简单，你以为不用解释太多下属必然会明白，但，出来的成果，你会很后悔你为何不花多点时间解释和要求对方重复一遍你要他做的事。
打工是，忍一时，风平浪静；退一步，海阔天空。
管理计划是，凡事不可以以为，把所有人和事，当三岁的小孩来对待。
还好，还好。。我的个性很看得开和乐观。。
还好，还好。。老板了解我。。嘿嘿。。
还好，还好。。趁机锻炼我的耐性。。
还好，还好。。老板愿意栽培我。。
还好，还好。。我有份工。。
还好，还好。。工作很忙。。
还好，还好。。学了好多。。
还好，还好。。我很好。
Thursday, June 25
Wednesday, November 5
Peace...
No matter what happened, we always have to move forward and move on with our life. We tried our best to be in control of our life but most of the time, we can't. We failed to do that. Whether we like it or not, we are not solitary. We live in a community and we interact with people around us. Some of the decisions are not really up to us. There are human factors, environmental factors and even machine factors that can cause a disaster in what we are trying to accomplish.
Somewhat disappointed in someone. Some people uses God's name to justify his action and his misdemeanor. It is quite sad. He views others's friendly opinion as being busy body and constantly thinks that everyone is out there to sabotage him. I am in a constant mode of warning myself not to turn out like him. I still remember DR once told me, "Learn the good from your superior as well as learn from his mistake to warn yourself not to repeat them". I am learning. DR also reminded me few days ago, "The goals are important but the relationship you have with your coworker is much more important than achieving your goals." I wish HP would understand and agree to that.
Please remind me 20 years from now if I turned into an arrogant and stubborn old fart. =)
After my conversation with KH that night, I just realized how lucky I am right now at this moment. Comparing to my old job, the chaos and politics are quite similar. One major thing that makes the different is that I have good people around me. Yes, I know my mgr is really hard to put up with but there are still lots of good people around me and people are reasonable comparing to the hormone driven old job. I am very much blessed.
I should not ask for more but to do my best in everything.
Peace...
Somewhat disappointed in someone. Some people uses God's name to justify his action and his misdemeanor. It is quite sad. He views others's friendly opinion as being busy body and constantly thinks that everyone is out there to sabotage him. I am in a constant mode of warning myself not to turn out like him. I still remember DR once told me, "Learn the good from your superior as well as learn from his mistake to warn yourself not to repeat them". I am learning. DR also reminded me few days ago, "The goals are important but the relationship you have with your coworker is much more important than achieving your goals." I wish HP would understand and agree to that.
Please remind me 20 years from now if I turned into an arrogant and stubborn old fart. =)
After my conversation with KH that night, I just realized how lucky I am right now at this moment. Comparing to my old job, the chaos and politics are quite similar. One major thing that makes the different is that I have good people around me. Yes, I know my mgr is really hard to put up with but there are still lots of good people around me and people are reasonable comparing to the hormone driven old job. I am very much blessed.
I should not ask for more but to do my best in everything.
Peace...
Wednesday, October 15
Life is good...
Circumstances that turned against us forced dependence on God.
Circumstances that force dependence on God teaches us patience.
Circumstances that teaches us patience make us wise.
Something that I learned from BSF, something that I shared with my mgr today. Don't we all need patience? Don't we all wish that we can turn away when things are not panning out the way we wished? Don't we all hope that the person who is screaming and insulting us can just disappear in our life for good?
Human being are at their ugliest when they are at work. Why? Why say things that would hurt others? Why do things that would hurt others? Why dislike someone just because?
I admit that I am not perfect. I admit that I do make mistakes. I admit that sometimes I really do want to do one of those things...but, why? Ego, Pride, Anger and Frustration can easily lead to a man's destruction. We need to always caution ourselves.
Everything started to fall into places now, although the challenges are still there for us to conquer then command. Pray that my GC process will go smooth..
Life is good... =)
I admit that I am not perfect. I admit that I do make mistakes. I admit that sometimes I really do want to do one of those things...but, why? Ego, Pride, Anger and Frustration can easily lead to a man's destruction. We need to always caution ourselves.
Everything started to fall into places now, although the challenges are still there for us to conquer then command. Pray that my GC process will go smooth..
Life is good... =)
Thursday, October 9
=)
Finally, the project had came to an end, I hope. This might be the last time we are traveling to CC. (HOORAY!!!) Next project, Houston!
Work is getting busier and busier and much more complicated lately. It is still all good though, as I enjoy breezing through all the chaos and mess. My training plan is just getting started. There are so many courses to take, although some of them are probably useless for me but, it is much better than not being given the chance to excel. DR had put in 5k budget for each of us for career advancement. From the conversations, sounded like he planned to send me for leadership courses taught by outsider. 5k = 2 courses per year. Sigh...I am very much blessed to have this job.
Hopefully, tomorrow after getting back to SA, I can go home instead of staying at work. That would be so much more relaxing and I can get more stuff done at home as well.
Ego and Pride, are the 2 root causes of destruction.
Work is getting busier and busier and much more complicated lately. It is still all good though, as I enjoy breezing through all the chaos and mess. My training plan is just getting started. There are so many courses to take, although some of them are probably useless for me but, it is much better than not being given the chance to excel. DR had put in 5k budget for each of us for career advancement. From the conversations, sounded like he planned to send me for leadership courses taught by outsider. 5k = 2 courses per year. Sigh...I am very much blessed to have this job.
Hopefully, tomorrow after getting back to SA, I can go home instead of staying at work. That would be so much more relaxing and I can get more stuff done at home as well.
Ego and Pride, are the 2 root causes of destruction.
Wednesday, September 3
無聊的早晨
嗯。。九點半就可以回來睡早覺，夠奇怪的工作吧？待會兒又要回去廠了。這份工真的有點太過寫意了，變得有點沉悶。雖然很多人會說，輕松的工是件好事，但學 到的東西太少了，有點沒趣。應該是性格的問題吧，向來都比較喜歡有點挑戰的事，特別是事業和學業。這份工，最挑戰的應該是人際關係的問題吧，可是我已變得 不再那麼在乎了，有點豁出去了的感覺。雖然被人無端端侮辱了還是會有點气，不過始終相信她這種驕傲的格性，不用我做些什麼，遲早她自己也會得罪別人然後自 食其果。
開始發現，我下班後，都不太會為工作的事煩惱了，是件好事？悶哪。。這份工。回去讀書？只有不斷地求上進，人生才不會白活，也才會過得更有意義。腳步，必需一直向前走，人，必需一直往前看！要時時刻刻准備好自己，机會來時才不會後悔因自己的懶惰和不備而錯過了。
自己的人生，如果用局外人的角度來看，可能可以看得更清楚吧。
開始發現，我下班後，都不太會為工作的事煩惱了，是件好事？悶哪。。這份工。回去讀書？只有不斷地求上進，人生才不會白活，也才會過得更有意義。腳步，必需一直向前走，人，必需一直往前看！要時時刻刻准備好自己，机會來時才不會後悔因自己的懶惰和不備而錯過了。
自己的人生，如果用局外人的角度來看，可能可以看得更清楚吧。
Friday, August 22
Scary Screaming Woman
Sigh...I am deaf. It was an accident. I only ALMOST step on your steel-toed feet, not stepping on your barefeet with my stiletto! And it was only ALMOST!! Not DID!! Besides, I am only 120 lbs.!! Not like I weigh 200 lbs. Really wonder why some woman like to scream so much... Dang...If you scream like 2 seconds, is understandable...8 seconds?? C'mon, give me a break! You saw me coming and you could have just said, "Boo!" rather than a sharp, high-pitched, lengthy screaming to get my and the whole office's attention! The expression on my face is more puzzled than apologetic nor surprise. I did apologize but the first thing that came into my mind was, "What is your problem?" than "Does it hurt?"
Oh well, I am weird anyway. When my friend tripped, I would ask, "You don't even know how to walk?" rather than "Are you okay?" That's me. My sympathy and empathy level is very low for normal healthy human being.
Still don't understand why some woman like to scream so much. It is more fake than real scared and to me, that's the worst way to get man's attention although, some man likes it cause it makes them feel like a hero/macho/useful. Some people really have self confident issue. Oh well, man, woman..what do I know anyway?
Back to work.
Monday, August 4
問世間情為何物，直叫人連工都可拋？
終於，有了明確的答案，非常非常地令人驚訝。想不到，哎。。。人吶，感情與工作是不能混為一談的，現在，倆者皆輸了，還可能賠上婚姻與家庭，值得嗎？為何要出軌呢？別人給了你机會，你為何不好好珍惜呢？為何不能學會控制一下自己的脾氣呢？對著你上司的上司大喊大叫，你沒想過後果嗎？
雖然兩個每天算計我的人被開除了，卻也為他們感到悲哀。未來的生計該怎麼辦呢？前途，有了被開除的記碌，也不好找工吶！哎，情吶！情。。自制之力去了哪呢？為何沒有想想後果呢？更何況你們都是有家室的人了。。
想不到兩個老板都那麼相信我，連這種高級机秘都告訴我。
郭廷翔，認識你十多年了，還不了解你嗎？加油吧，老友！
雖然兩個每天算計我的人被開除了，卻也為他們感到悲哀。未來的生計該怎麼辦呢？前途，有了被開除的記碌，也不好找工吶！哎，情吶！情。。自制之力去了哪呢？為何沒有想想後果呢？更何況你們都是有家室的人了。。
想不到兩個老板都那麼相信我，連這種高級机秘都告訴我。
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郭廷翔，認識你十多年了，還不了解你嗎？加油吧，老友！
Tuesday, July 29
孫子兵法
原來事情總究還是告了一個段落，至少是我這邊吧。至於經理嘛，也只能等他自己學會怎麼放下那一份自大了。或許，等大家都淡忘了這件事，會慢慢好起來吧！時間總是能治療一切傷痛。
真的真的好幸運，遇到了那麼多的貴人。他們大可不幫我解釋，把我一并推下水算了，卻沒有這麼做。今天，去個Focus Group 的研討會，遇見了那兒的頭兒，還以為他會生我的氣，為難我，他卻過來安慰我，和我說，“我們還是一樣很喜歡你，兩個廠都隨時歡迎你來。”聽了後，心情輕鬆了許多。因為不愛麻煩人的關係吧，所以很多事情都是親力親為，粗重的，瑣碎的，都不怎麼計較。也因為不愛擺那種高高在上的姿態，雖然偶而被那些愛欺負弱小以為我好欺負的人欺壓，卻很容易和所有人打成一片了。就連人們常投訴的總公司買家的人都對我特別隨和，也不時地關照。
我，好幸運。
做人，是最難的一門學問。有些人，學了幾十年，還是學不會。虛心向學和不驕傲是唯一能令你學得更快的方式。我嘛，還要再加油！學習觀察，以不變應万變。
孫子兵法！！快去找本來讀讀。
還有吶，因為被驕傲自大沖昏了頭，那個愛欺負我的巫婆昨天被炒了。感到有點悶悶地，少了個讓我磨練和學習的對手了。
真的真的好幸運，遇到了那麼多的貴人。他們大可不幫我解釋，把我一并推下水算了，卻沒有這麼做。今天，去個Focus Group 的研討會，遇見了那兒的頭兒，還以為他會生我的氣，為難我，他卻過來安慰我，和我說，“我們還是一樣很喜歡你，兩個廠都隨時歡迎你來。”聽了後，心情輕鬆了許多。因為不愛麻煩人的關係吧，所以很多事情都是親力親為，粗重的，瑣碎的，都不怎麼計較。也因為不愛擺那種高高在上的姿態，雖然偶而被那些愛欺負弱小以為我好欺負的人欺壓，卻很容易和所有人打成一片了。就連人們常投訴的總公司買家的人都對我特別隨和，也不時地關照。
我，好幸運。
做人，是最難的一門學問。有些人，學了幾十年，還是學不會。虛心向學和不驕傲是唯一能令你學得更快的方式。我嘛，還要再加油！學習觀察，以不變應万變。
孫子兵法！！快去找本來讀讀。
還有吶，因為被驕傲自大沖昏了頭，那個愛欺負我的巫婆昨天被炒了。感到有點悶悶地，少了個讓我磨練和學習的對手了。
今天吶，走路超不小心的，差點從樓梯頂整個滾了下去，現在，膝蓋扭到了，大腿黑了一大片。。好痛。我無藥可救了。。
Tuesday, July 22
Ridiculously...BORED!!
It's Tuesday, and...I only worked 2 hours! This is all due to my mgr's stubbornness. The plant called and told him they are preparing for the hurricane but he refused to understand. So, here we are...cannot do anything but wait...
I am so bored...stuck in CC and got nothing better to do on a working day. It is not advisable to go to the beach...I really rather be home. Luckily I still got some movie in my laptop for some entertainment purposes...
First time taking an afternoon nap after I started working. Hmm...WEIRD. Still...BORED!!! That's the lesson learned...Do Not Be Stubborn!! Oh well, it is not my choice. People are arrogant. Booooo.....
So tired of him using God's name and prayers in everything. It is his own stubbornness that gets us into this situation but he refused to admit it and learn. Prayers prayers...that's all he always say although he made the mistake in the first place. I do believe God has good judgment on His side. Sometimes I surprised myself with my patience to put up with him. Hopefully, we can get it done by tomorrow...then I will regain my freedom!!!
2 more days & nights to go? Oh Lord...please keep him away from me....please give me patience to put up with him before I snaps!
黑暗中漫舞
First time taking an afternoon nap after I started working. Hmm...WEIRD. Still...BORED!!! That's the lesson learned...Do Not Be Stubborn!! Oh well, it is not my choice. People are arrogant. Booooo.....
So tired of him using God's name and prayers in everything. It is his own stubbornness that gets us into this situation but he refused to admit it and learn. Prayers prayers...that's all he always say although he made the mistake in the first place. I do believe God has good judgment on His side. Sometimes I surprised myself with my patience to put up with him. Hopefully, we can get it done by tomorrow...then I will regain my freedom!!!
2 more days & nights to go? Oh Lord...please keep him away from me....please give me patience to put up with him before I snaps!
黑暗中漫舞
Friday, July 18
I Feel...
That's a very strong and powerful phrase?
That's a phrase that can throw people off guard?
What you did make me feel...
Hmm...Lesson learned. Will try to use that phrase.
Thanks, DR.
Created a huge mess before I left for CC this week. Use your Dir. to try to make me work on things for you at the very last minute? Pull out that witch's name to make me fix the mistake I didn't make? Too bad...I am not the easily threatened type. Besides, I do not report to either of them. Throw stuff on my desk and expect me to run around to find out the details? Send me emails and expect me to go and find out on my own? You show me some respect, I will return you with some. Sounds fair?
Went to talk to DR after the whole chaos and asked him to let me fight this battle on my own. Glad that he agreed to it. Some battles in life, you need to learn to fight it on your own. Can't be depending on others all the time, right?
Everyone's attitude had a 180 degree turn as soon as I got back from CC. Oh well, life goes on, for better or worse.
Sigh..I am not made for TX. I miss snow... >_<
That's a phrase that can throw people off guard?
What you did make me feel...
Hmm...Lesson learned. Will try to use that phrase.
Thanks, DR.
Created a huge mess before I left for CC this week. Use your Dir. to try to make me work on things for you at the very last minute? Pull out that witch's name to make me fix the mistake I didn't make? Too bad...I am not the easily threatened type. Besides, I do not report to either of them. Throw stuff on my desk and expect me to run around to find out the details? Send me emails and expect me to go and find out on my own? You show me some respect, I will return you with some. Sounds fair?
Went to talk to DR after the whole chaos and asked him to let me fight this battle on my own. Glad that he agreed to it. Some battles in life, you need to learn to fight it on your own. Can't be depending on others all the time, right?
Everyone's attitude had a 180 degree turn as soon as I got back from CC. Oh well, life goes on, for better or worse.
Sigh..I am not made for TX. I miss snow... >_<
Sunday, June 29
Venting..Thinking...Using my brain??!!
Just realized that bakery is actually one of the hardest field in food industry. Most people specialized in only one area, for instance, bread, or cookie, and is rare for someone to be good at all baked goods. I am learning from the master right now and I am at the best position to learn everything in this place despite all the politics and backstabbing that have been going on.
My mgr, he, is a hypocrite. He likes to push people over their edges to observe their reaction although he only do that to people who are under him most of the time. Speaking of don't like to play games and politic, he can't help but doing it and it just made me lose my respect for him for being such a hypocrite. Speaking of being a Christian and blah blah blah...what a joke! He even told me that I have to put up with him because he is my mgr. I am kinda wondering, is this still happening in this century? Why do I not see it in other people?
I just kept telling myself...Adversity in life will make me a better person and help me to be more successful. That's all I can do for now.
Nov. 2011, that's the due date I gave myself, as I know that he will not apply my GC until my visa is almost expire, I might as well find my own career path somewhere else.
I am actually getting bored with this job, the learning process is too slow. Sigh..what a nightmare. 20 more months before I can do anything.
Cheers to 4 days work week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Looking at another CC trip and good Mexican food after this work week..
Stepping back and looking at the whole picture, it is really good to be single. I can do whatever I want, go wherever I want, go with whoever I want, and move anywhere I want!
Maybe, I am really not made for marriage...HAHAHA..Does this kind of species still exist? Or the population count is increasing?
My mgr, he, is a hypocrite. He likes to push people over their edges to observe their reaction although he only do that to people who are under him most of the time. Speaking of don't like to play games and politic, he can't help but doing it and it just made me lose my respect for him for being such a hypocrite. Speaking of being a Christian and blah blah blah...what a joke! He even told me that I have to put up with him because he is my mgr. I am kinda wondering, is this still happening in this century? Why do I not see it in other people?
I just kept telling myself...Adversity in life will make me a better person and help me to be more successful. That's all I can do for now.
Nov. 2011, that's the due date I gave myself, as I know that he will not apply my GC until my visa is almost expire, I might as well find my own career path somewhere else.
I am actually getting bored with this job, the learning process is too slow. Sigh..what a nightmare. 20 more months before I can do anything.
Cheers to 4 days work week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Looking at another CC trip and good Mexican food after this work week..
Stepping back and looking at the whole picture, it is really good to be single. I can do whatever I want, go wherever I want, go with whoever I want, and move anywhere I want!
Maybe, I am really not made for marriage...HAHAHA..Does this kind of species still exist? Or the population count is increasing?
Tuesday, June 24
痛
呆。被人從背後插了一刀。總以為，來說是非者，便是是非人，原來現實中并非如此。是我想得太天真了。
政治啊，政治。有人的地方，就脫離不了你的存在。玩或不玩，似乎好像沒有甚麼選擇的餘地。傻人有傻福嗎？我應該慢慢退出而開始當傻人嗎？好懊惱。我太高估自己隱藏情緒的能力了。需要多多磨練。
盡力地在勸自己，看開些，別把這份工看得太重。這幾個周末，都把自己關在家里，為了工作上的人際關系而懊惱，想想，也許不是那麼值得吧。
當初選擇這一行，還不是因為可以有機會一個人獨處地做實驗，可以減少玩政治的機會。如今看來，好像不怎麼有那個機會。
是時候，改一改了。想想。。。該怎麼改呢？該改些甚麼呢？
累。妳們去了哪裡了？很累。好想和你們聊聊天。
政治啊，政治。有人的地方，就脫離不了你的存在。玩或不玩，似乎好像沒有甚麼選擇的餘地。傻人有傻福嗎？我應該慢慢退出而開始當傻人嗎？好懊惱。我太高估自己隱藏情緒的能力了。需要多多磨練。
盡力地在勸自己，看開些，別把這份工看得太重。這幾個周末，都把自己關在家里，為了工作上的人際關系而懊惱，想想，也許不是那麼值得吧。
當初選擇這一行，還不是因為可以有機會一個人獨處地做實驗，可以減少玩政治的機會。如今看來，好像不怎麼有那個機會。
是時候，改一改了。想想。。。該怎麼改呢？該改些甚麼呢？
累。妳們去了哪裡了？很累。好想和你們聊聊天。
Saturday, May 3
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