迷失的秋天

秋天，終於來了！雖然德薩斯的秋天真的和我經曆過的秋天有天淵之別，但，總好過沒有！=)
知足常樂！

怡保在迷失的楓葉公園影的秋天寫真集。。嘿嘿。。

啊。。。又五顏六色了！氣哪！這是今年的第三次了！好討嚴吶！還以為已經漸漸好轉了，卻好像。。更慘了。好累噢。。病得好累噢。。借個肩膀靠靠。

猶記得小時候，病了都特別愛哭。聽到媽媽的問候，就會開始流淚。。長大了，好像也沒進步多少。哀吶。。

一個人流蕩了那麼多年，病了自己照顧自己的日子也過慣了，可是還是還擇不愛這樣過。人，真的不是個體的生物誒，至少我不是。印像最深的生病記錄，該是03年的春假吧！朋友們都趁著假日去玩了，我卻只能躺在床上，連起來弄個飯的力氣都沒了。還好有室友，才不至於。。也記得當時把朋友嚇著了，特意開車來給我送幾個她老遠從香港帶回來的金桔。。好感動。

病得真不是時候，偏偏在我工作最忙，最壓力的時候，讓我病得連作戰的能力都被削簿了。好無奈。工作上，學問的難題，對我來說是個很好的挑戰，人際的斗爭，對我來說是種壓力。。還是很喜歡那種一個人待在實驗室的日子。

病魔。。快走！

Peace...

No matter what happened, we always have to move forward and move on with our life. We tried our best to be in control of our life but most of the time, we can't. We failed to do that. Whether we like it or not, we are not solitary. We live in a community and we interact with people around us. Some of the decisions are not really up to us. There are human factors, environmental factors and even machine factors that can cause a disaster in what we are trying to accomplish.

Somewhat disappointed in someone. Some people uses God's name to justify his action and his misdemeanor. It is quite sad. He views others's friendly opinion as being busy body and constantly thinks that everyone is out there to sabotage him. I am in a constant mode of warning myself not to turn out like him. I still remember DR once told me, "Learn the good from your superior as well as learn from his mistake to warn yourself not to repeat them". I am learning. DR also reminded me few days ago, "The goals are important but the relationship you have with your coworker is much more important than achieving your goals." I wish HP would understand and agree to that.

Please remind me 20 years from now if I turned into an arrogant and stubborn old fart. =)

After my conversation with KH that night, I just realized how lucky I am right now at this moment. Comparing to my old job, the chaos and politics are quite similar. One major thing that makes the different is that I have good people around me. Yes, I know my mgr is really hard to put up with but there are still lots of good people around me and people are reasonable comparing to the hormone driven old job. I am very much blessed.

I should not ask for more but to do my best in everything.

Peace...

Paintball = Painball

The sign of Paintball!! What an exhausting day...

We started journey out to the paintball field around 9.15am and it is about an hour East from SA. They said it is the nation's best paintball field. We got there and there were 2 others teams there. So, we joined them and started playing.

We went through a few fields and it was quite easy. We won all the games. The other team has too many kids and of course...there is no such thing as mercy in war field. I got shot on my fingers and my gun on the first field and I have to walk away cause my gun got problem on the second game. The next game, while I was cocking my gun, someone shot me on my arm but it was not that bad.

The last one, is the Kill House. It is a big trailer build like a maze where the defender can hide inside and start shooting at you when you are turning corners. The shots are wayyyyyy closer than any shots we ever encountered. We were attacker and we went into the house as soon as the game started. We were trying to turn on a corner and D got shot, so, he was out. There left 3 of us girls, and we were trying it again. I was trying to be more aggressive because those games before this, was not as aggressive and it gets a little bit boring. So, as I was trying to turn, the guy started shooting. I got 3 shots at once! The first 2, were not bad, but the last one, on my hand, I was literally screaming and almost dropped my gun! When i saw the pieces of the bullet, the paint and blood running down my hand...I decided, I am done! Haha...

We were all exhausted and quite dehydrated at the end of the day. I came back with a headache and a big bruise + cuts on my hand.

I had a great time and would definitely go back but...next time, with GEARS!!