Sunday, June 29

Venting..Thinking...Using my brain??!!

Just realized that bakery is actually one of the hardest field in food industry. Most people specialized in only one area, for instance, bread, or cookie, and is rare for someone to be good at all baked goods. I am learning from the master right now and I am at the best position to learn everything in this place despite all the politics and backstabbing that have been going on.

My mgr, he, is a hypocrite. He likes to push people over their edges to observe their reaction although he only do that to people who are under him most of the time. Speaking of don't like to play games and politic, he can't help but doing it and it just made me lose my respect for him for being such a hypocrite. Speaking of being a Christian and blah blah blah...what a joke! He even told me that I have to put up with him because he is my mgr. I am kinda wondering, is this still happening in this century? Why do I not see it in other people?

I just kept telling myself...Adversity in life will make me a better person and help me to be more successful. That's all I can do for now.

Nov. 2011, that's the due date I gave myself, as I know that he will not apply my GC until my visa is almost expire, I might as well find my own career path somewhere else.
I am actually getting bored with this job, the learning process is too slow. Sigh..what a nightmare. 20 more months before I can do anything.

Cheers to 4 days work week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Looking at another CC trip and good Mexican food after this work week..

Stepping back and looking at the whole picture, it is really good to be single. I can do whatever I want, go wherever I want, go with whoever I want, and move anywhere I want!
Maybe, I am really not made for marriage...HAHAHA..Does this kind of species still exist? Or the population count is increasing?

Tuesday, June 24

痛

呆。被人從背後插了一刀。總以為,來說是非者,便是是非人,原來現實中并非如此。是我想得太天真了。

政治啊,政治。有人的地方,就脫離不了你的存在。玩或不玩,似乎好像沒有甚麼選擇的餘地。傻人有傻福嗎?我應該慢慢退出而開始當傻人嗎?好懊惱。我太高估自己隱藏情緒的能力了。需要多多磨練。

盡力地在勸自己,看開些,別把這份工看得太重。這幾個周末,都把自己關在家里,為了工作上的人際關系而懊惱,想想,也許不是那麼值得吧。

當初選擇這一行,還不是因為可以有機會一個人獨處地做實驗,可以減少玩政治的機會。如今看來,好像不怎麼有那個機會。

是時候,改一改了。想想。。。該怎麼改呢?該改些甚麼呢?

累。妳們去了哪裡了?很累。好想和你們聊聊天。

Sunday, June 15

>_<

So NOT looking forward to the trip. As much as I like to travel and do not mind traveling for my job, I am really not looking forward to this trip.

Please please...leave me alone...kids. Sometimes is an honor that people like you, but sometimes you just want to keep the distance and hope that they would leave you alone.

Need to start setting boundaries now.

Sadly but inevitably, I ended my relationship with my 515, my favorite number. Anyhow, new number is quite easy to remember too. That's the positive thing.

Wish me luck for this week long trip. Will be back next Friday!