Leaving...Leaving...Leaving...

Received a letter from the management early morning. Apparently, they are no longer accepting credit card for my rent..at least for this month. Yeah, EH, is time for your "I told you so". Yes, I do not have a cheque book. Yes, I really don't know how I can pay my rent. Yes, I went to the gas station to buy money order. Yes, they do not accept credit card for money order. Yes, I can only withdraw $300 per day from my ATM. Yes, I am having trouble finding a way to pay my rent. Yes, that's very typical me. Haha..So lazy to deal with this kind of stuff. Isn't it easier for them to charge my credit card every month and then I don't have to deal with it? Just charge me $10 more bucks...as long as I don't have to deal with it. Yeah, lazy is my middle name. =)

Oh yeah...my gatal's punya hand just went to cut my own hair..and now I look so weird. Long Hair + Scissors cannot coexist in my house.

I don't want to pack!! I don't want to pack!! Can you just buy some clothes for me and leave it over there so that I don't have to pack? Grrrr........So lazy to do the whole pack and unpack thing...

Happy Labor Day!!! Yohooooo!!!!!!

結婚

想不到妳竟然還不想結婚，出乎意料。還以為妳會是個巴不得快點嫁給他的人呢。。原來我錯了。兩個人在一起久了，會不會就不想結婚了？心境的問題嗎？還沒準備好嗎？還是害怕改變現狀？沒有信心嗎？愛，是不足夠的。現實生活遲早或可能會把愛磨滅，能夠相處才比較重要吧。加油了！希望妳能克服或找到妳心里的障礙，然後做個明智的決定。不是非嫁不可的。。單身也有單身的快樂呀！更何況天涯何處無芳草嘛。。

我是我自己最大的敵人；You are your own worst enemy.
再看看吧。。時間，時間。孽緣。。借過，借過。

Scary Screaming Woman

Sigh...I am deaf. It was an accident. I only ALMOST step on your steel-toed feet, not stepping on your barefeet with my stiletto! And it was only ALMOST!! Not DID!! Besides, I am only 120 lbs.!! Not like I weigh 200 lbs. Really wonder why some woman like to scream so much... Dang...If you scream like 2 seconds, is understandable...8 seconds?? C'mon, give me a break! You saw me coming and you could have just said, "Boo!" rather than a sharp, high-pitched, lengthy screaming to get my and the whole office's attention! The expression on my face is more puzzled than apologetic nor surprise. I did apologize but the first thing that came into my mind was, "What is your problem?" than "Does it hurt?"

Oh well, I am weird anyway. When my friend tripped, I would ask, "You don't even know how to walk?" rather than "Are you okay?" That's me. My sympathy and empathy level is very low for normal healthy human being.

Still don't understand why some woman like to scream so much. It is more fake than real scared and to me, that's the worst way to get man's attention although, some man likes it cause it makes them feel like a hero/macho/useful. Some people really have self confident issue. Oh well, man, woman..what do I know anyway?

Back to work.

七年

七年了。。七年了。。七年之痒要發生了嗎？呵呵呵。。
對不起，還是不想回，太自由了！下一站是哪里呢？

紅玫瑰

紅玫瑰。。向來都不是我的最愛。曾經就收過了一百朵紅玫瑰卻沒有什麼特別的感動，反而覺得這些紅玫瑰紅得太耀眼，又摻帶了些深紅色素，有種血淋淋帶毒的感覺，很恐怖。也許是看過些有紅玫瑰的恐怖片的關係吧。

今天收到了一打紅玫瑰，感覺卻不一樣了。一大清早，他很用心地，把紅玫瑰插入了花瓶中，也加入了點綴的小花和綠葉，那份心意，盡在不言中。
也許是送的人花的那一番心思，也許是長大了，開始懂得珍惜和明白了，也學會用不同的角度和心態去看和體會，發現到，紅玫瑰，還是有它的美。

謝謝你。

^_^

一睜開眼，就覺得怪怪地，怎麼今天好像睡得有點久了？趕緊爬起來一看，7:15 a.m.！馬上跳起來，刷牙洗臉，換了衣，連妝都不畫，喝了牛奶，看一看表，怎麼才 5:50 a.m.？再一看手机，呆了，禍不單行，表也沒電了（希望不是壞了）。走出去，下雨！唉。。真是禍不雙行。SA 的人在雨天開車特別差，老是塞車。無語。。是時候去買個鬧鐘了。。順便買個表？^-^

還好，到辦工室時，才 7:52 a.m. 呼。。鬆了一口气。走入經理的辦工室，他看著我支支唔唔的樣子，就問我，“你睡不醒啦？” 呆了，看著他一會兒，就老老實實地點了點頭。。再和他嘿嘿地傻笑了兩聲就問他，怎麼知道？原來因為我每天都比他早到，今天遲了那麼多，有點不對勁。嘿嘿。。呆呆的我。。竟然認了。。算了，反正面對真心待我的人，我都不慣說謊，只有真像才能還我自由。

今天的 PAR，超出了我的想像。這經理和上司在打著什麼算盤？經理說，他們想升我兩級。呆。。兩年的時間，等等看吧。其實經理一直以來都不太喜歡我在這個職位，覺得不夠權威，做起事來就很麻煩，也很難和他分擔另外幾個廠的職務。而且，他覺得我的學歷和智商比其他人都高，更不喜歡我被那些人欺負。邊走邊瞧吧！盡力做好，盡量學習，不要辜負了他們倆的期望就好。很不幸地，他，也打算把那燙手山竽丟給我管。。真的是甜酸苦辣都得一起吃。還好他也知道這個山竽的人格和工作態度，也會明白我以後會面對的挑戰，不幸中的大幸吧！而且他也知道我比他有耐性，山竽在我手中比較有升級的机會。

綿綿細雨。。走在雨中，心情特別好。好久沒淋雨了。。突然想起了踢踏舞老師教過的“雨中跳舞”的步伐，就在路上不停地踩著一池一池的水，踩到褲管和襪子都濕了，才心滿意足的回家。夏天愛踩雨水，秋天愛踩落葉。。今年有落葉嗎？

心態很重要。如果今天一早因為趕得那麼匆忙而不開心的話，走入經理的辦公室一定不會開心，走在雨中一定會更不開心。要學會把過去放下，專注於當下。放得快，看得開的人會比較容易快樂。我要做個快樂的人！

28...28...

28 years old. Attended and going to attend a total of 7 weddings in this year. Almost half of the wedding, she is bridesmaid and have to organize those bridal shower and bachelorette party. Kinda sad. Can feel her anxiousness about being single. It is the friends around you who make you nervous, I think. Most of her friend are married and some of them have family.

Can I still be very lay back when I turn 28 and also single? I think I could. Well, at least tons of my friends are still single and some of them are older than me (most of them actually). Besides, imho (in my humble opinion), marriage is optional anyway. 50% of them ended up in divorce. If you can't find someone who you are willing to spend the rest of your life with, why force yourself into marriage just because the society asked us to? Or even force yourself into a relationship just because everyone has a significant other? You will be miserable.

Hope she will see that someday and can stop letting that fact bugs her. Sense a little bit of desperation out of her. Sometimes, in cases like this, they can't see that the guy they are dating or dated is just not that into them and that they should walk away. If he is truly into you, he would not have broken up with you in the first place. There is no such thing as second chance.

Life is complicated, relationship is even worse. What would I know anyway? I have 2 more years to get to that stage, or not. MUAHAHAHA...so evil...

The Mummy

Finally, I step my foot back into the movie theater again. Can't even recall the last time I went to watch movie, might be more than a year ago when Mabel was still in IA. I am able to eat lunch or dinner on my own but was never able to go to watch movie by myself. Just felt weird. Luckily I got CJ with me...too bad CJ didn't watch the Sisterhood's first movie, otherwise, we can watch the 2nd one. Need to find out where the dollar theater is in this town...can do a movie marathon Saturday someday. Or maybe can go by myself this time? Since I wanted to watch the Kung Fu Panda...Hmmm...

Finished watching The Mummy. Kinda disappointed actually. Not enough mysteries and clues and the female main character was no longer the same person. I like the original cast better. She is prettier and sexier...hehe...(Okay, I know I do look at woman a lot). They used many popular actors from Asia. I thought Jet Li said he is no longer going to do any action movie? Maybe I am wrong. Anyhow, the whole 3 headed flying western dragon thingy really doesn't fly for me and the whole beast thing doesn't do it either. So boring. Didn't even tell me why he went back into the palace when they are fighting and try to raise all those 5 elements? Or maybe I missed that part? A little bit more humor and suspension could be added into the fight too when the bone army is fighting with the mud army. The Emperor should be portrayed to become someone who is more evil, who is trying to kill all the main actors instead of attacking them only when they attack him. The Yahtzee was cool though. I want a pet like this!! Sigh...I missed snow. >_<

Oh well, when a movie makes me check my watch in the middle of the show...hehe...is not a good movie, or at least, not good enough for me.

So hot...100 F!!! Stupid TX weather!!! Make me so sleepyyyy...But also give me the excuse to drink my beer. Hehehe...Nap nap nap!! ZZZzzzz.......

嘿。。明天又是你老一歲的日子了哦。。也是中國歷史上蠻重要的一天。如果你還在的話，說不定我們可以一起去看看。以前吶，有想過去歐洲背包旅行時，都是想著帶你去的，因為吶，我知道你是拼死都不會讓我被人欺負的，從小到大都是這樣。有時真不懂我是你姐還是你是我哥呢？

最近過得可好呀？前幾個星期，你終於又走入了我夢中，雖然是那短短的幾分鐘，但我也很滿足了。如果可以的話，回去和爸爸聊一聊吧。告訴他，別再自責了，因為，一切都是大家不想要的意外。而且，一切，冥冥之中都是有按排了的，對嗎？

最近，好想你喔，特別是去年回家的時候。想起你呀，在我出國前和朋友去喝茶時，答應媽媽十二點前回到家，卻到了十二點多了，人影都沒一個，手机就開始響了。還以為媽媽打來，一聽，卻是你那關切的詢問，令我好气又好笑。。什麼時候我家的弟弟變成了那麼擔心我的媽媽啦？回到家，看見客廳燈還亮著，你一聽見開門聲，就趕緊跑下來，確保我安全進家了，陪我上了樓，才回去寫你的日記。有時回家啊，真的希望你還在那等我。忘了告訴你，我們搬家了。

也還記得，我很愛看恐怖片，卻也很怕，就拉著你三更半夜陪我看，還是那種我拉著你的手臂擋著臉然後要你講劇情那種看法。想起來，你也蠻有耐性陪我個膽小鬼的。。看平時脾氣暴躁的你，對我卻非常有耐性。

希望，你在另一個世界，過得開開心心的。家里的事，就別擔心了，有我們在嘛。生日快樂！

善良最終只會造成更大的傷害，還是由得他去吧。時間應該能夠沖淡一切。內疚了。。我是真的有點錯。
犯賤吶！！！算了，想破了腦袋也不會找到答案的。。反正就是個人性格問題。

問世間情為何物，直叫人連工都可拋？

終於，有了明確的答案，非常非常地令人驚訝。想不到，哎。。。人吶，感情與工作是不能混為一談的，現在，倆者皆輸了，還可能賠上婚姻與家庭，值得嗎？為何要出軌呢？別人給了你机會，你為何不好好珍惜呢？為何不能學會控制一下自己的脾氣呢？對著你上司的上司大喊大叫，你沒想過後果嗎？

雖然兩個每天算計我的人被開除了，卻也為他們感到悲哀。未來的生計該怎麼辦呢？前途，有了被開除的記碌，也不好找工吶！哎，情吶！情。。自制之力去了哪呢？為何沒有想想後果呢？更何況你們都是有家室的人了。。

想不到兩個老板都那麼相信我，連這種高級机秘都告訴我。

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郭廷翔，認識你十多年了，還不了解你嗎？加油吧，老友！