It is so f-up!
It is so screw up!
It is so mess up!!
I am so stressed out..
At this point, I just want to cry, I just want to leave, I just want to go home.

I kept asking myself, what can I do?! Nothing!! I am nobody!
The hopelessness and helplessness is getting more and more unbearable. I don't know how long I can last. I am very lost at this moment..
How could people be so unreasonable? How could things get so out of hand? How could everything turned upside down in few hours?! Is that the surprise that is awaiting me everyday? When is this going to be over? Never?!